Gathering of Love With God's Action in King City, Ontario
Through His Instrument, The Girl of My Will in Jesus
2008-02-02 – Part 1
The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: The Lord will do with his Church what you have just done: he will invite all those who have distanced themselves to come closer. God looks upon his children and he never stops loving them: although we are little groups, we are here for God. But God never neglects his other children; he loves all his children. He wants to take us in his hands as though we were instruments, in order to present us to his Father, saying: “Father, here are your children: those who believe in me, those who thirst, those who hunger for my Word. Let your mercy come down upon them so that they might be a spring that will flow over all the world’s children. The children of this world are hungry, the children of this world are thirsty, Father, but they do not know where to find nourishment. They have distanced themselves from you, Father, thinking that wherever they went, they would find happiness.”
This is how Jesus talks to his Father. Jesus never stops talking to his Father about his Father's chosen ones. We are all the Father's chosen ones and God the Father wants all his children, and therefore, he uses what we are. At this very moment, if we were to see ourselves as we truly are with everything we have accumulated within us, we would see children on crutches, we would see children lying on makeshift beds, we would see blind and deaf children, we would see children who want to give but who have no hands: this is what we are.
Why are we blind and deaf? Why do we have no hands? That’s because we lack faith in God's graces. We never stop worrying, we never stop turning our eyes to places where there are no graces. And there are children who are asking themselves: “But what are you doing, you who pray? What are you doing, you who go to mass on a regular basis?”They’re asking these questions because they’re watching us – they don’t see our crutches but what they do see are children who are hesitant before their prayers, mothers who cry in spite of their prayers, fathers who are in despair in spite of the fact that they attend mass every Sunday.
It is the children of this world who are watching us. They are as hungry and as thirsty as we are, but they want nourishment that is living, they want to drink from a pure source. We don’t represent that nourishment, we don’t represent that living water, because our eyes are lost in our thought, we have difficulty hearing the words of Jesus and living the words of Jesus. The children of this world are in need, in need of children who believe in what they are. Jesus comes to speak in our hearts in order to take hold of our hearts, and to keep them enveloped in his warmth. Jesus is the Light of the world; Jesus is movement of life; he's our God, our only God.
When we look at Jesus, we see the Father. Didn’t he say to his apostles: “Whoever sees me sees my Father”? Therefore, we have the very presence of God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit within us: we have the Almightiness within us, we have the Creator within us and we are his children. He sent us Jesus to tell us: “You are my children and I love you. Love one another as I love you.” When Jesus would say a word, it was the Father who was saying it. And so, we must do as our Father asks of us: to be the face of his Son. We must represent what we are: love, unconditional love for God the Father.
On earth, Jesus’ face was one of love and of peace. When Jesus came on earth, he accepted the suffering of the world; he didn’t only look at it, he accepted to live it, and his face always remained loving. When people would look at Jesus’ face, they would see a face filled with power. When the soldiers tried to strike the face of Christ, they covered his face with a cloth. Why? Because they could see the power of God, they could see trust in God. Jesus trusted in what he was: he was the Son of God, he was the Messenger from God, he was the One who had taken on human nature, and to take on human nature is to accept what is inherent to human nature. The perfect Flesh of Jesus accepted to take on our imperfection, the perfect Flesh of Jesus accepted to bear all of us. It was as though the Flesh of Jesus were made up of all our imperfect flesh and he took everything upon himself with love, with confidence.
Those watching him could see, could see that he kept his strength, and that strength emanated from within him. He didn’t draw that strength from an external source, for all that was external was nothing more than suffering, moaning. He could see children in tears, he could see children fighting illnesses – leprosy – he could see pride, he could see all the lies. He looked at what was external and he didn’t let what he saw enter him, but he turned his attention to the suffering of the world. He didn’t move away from suffering; he had come for those who were the most ill and the most ill were all those who had succumbed to the lowest level of sin. Therefore, he had come for the greatest of sinners. He would accompany them, he would comfort them, and people could see his face, and he never lost his peace. Why? Because he was in love, he was in love with his Flesh. The Flesh of the Son of God is a Flesh of love: it comes from God.
God the Son was not created – he is the uncreated One. He is the Creator, he is the All. Therefore, he was in love with what he was and his love was focused on what he had created in order to form one single flesh. We are all the Flesh of Christ, created by Christ to form but one, just as the Father and the Son form but one. Through the Flesh of Christ we form but one: we are in Jesus, we are part of the immense love of Christ for his Father. We were all chosen by God, our Eternal Father. How could the Son not have loved who we were? Because those he saw were his Father's children, they were all those his Father had chosen, and the Son loved all those his Father had chosen, for we are the chosen, we are love.
We are God's love. We have the breath of God within us: spiritual life, life of love, eternal life. For our spiritual life we have, through the flesh willed by the Father, a love that gives itself continuously: the soul that never stops giving what it is to God, the flesh that never stops acknowledging, through the soul, that it belongs to God, within the perfection of the Son of God made Man: the soul. The flesh never stops giving, and giving, and giving. We are what God the Father has always wanted us to be: love.
Therefore, God the Son loves us unconditionally: he loves the sinner but he doesn’t love the sin. We have given in to temptations and all this is because of our human will, not because of the child of God. The child of God comes from God and he did not create us with imperfection inside us. We have perfection inside us, but the human will has harmed that perfection by adding its own choices to it. The human will has made us aware of choices: “Yes, Father. No, Father. Your Will! My will!” When the tempter made us aware of human will by tempting the first flesh that was on earth, he was placing us in danger. Satan, who was a fallen angel, knew that by putting these choices in the child of God, the child of God would be forced to make choices from that moment on: the human will had a weakness.
Before we came to know human will we were perfect, for our flesh was flooded with Divine Will. It, our flesh, was created by the Divine Will, and therefore, it was immersed in the Divine Will. Everything that is within us, in our flesh, came from the Divine Will and the Divine Will has given everything to the flesh; the Divine Will has hidden nothing from the flesh. Our spiritual life knows the Divine Will, our soul knows the Divine Will; it has never lost its beauty, which it received from the Divine Will. This is the reason why our soul suffers when we are in a state of sin: it is betrayed by the flesh that wants only to please itself, and the human will never stops nourishing it. The soul is God's, it belongs to God, but it was given to us.
When God breathed life into us, spiritual life, he did so with all his love, and God's love is eternal, and therefore, we received the soul for eternity. The soul cannot die; it is the Life of God and whatever comes from God is eternal. Our flesh is eternal, it does not die. Let’s understand what the Holy Spirit wants to have us to understand: we have a soul and it is eternal because it comes from God, we have a flesh and it is eternal because it comes from God. Although we make our soul suffer, which is something that we cannot deny, going as far as refusing our God, our Creator, our soul will always be eternal. Therefore, it is destined to suffer eternally because of our choice. The flesh is no different: it is eternal by the Eternal Flesh; it was created by God and it will not die.
We came on earth to fulfil our destiny in order to bear witness to the love of God. Can we bear witness of our own accord? There is only the Son who can bear witness on our behalf, but in order for him to bear witness on our behalf, we must be faithful to what he has given us and has created for us. And Jesus said in the Gospel: “All those who believe in me will have eternal life. All those who believe that their flesh comes from me, the flesh shall be eternal and joyful.” But our dear human will can say: “I want nothing do to with you. I am sufficient unto myself. I have no need of your Life. I will keep what belongs to me. Don’t come and take over my flesh. My thoughts come from me. I will use my eyes to look at whatever pleases me. I can listen to whatever I wish. My words belong solely to me. I know what to do with every movement, for my heart belongs to me and not to you.” When we refuse everything to the Creator, the Creator will respect this, for, in order to create, the Creator gives what he is. And the Creator is love and his love is given freely, and therefore, when we were created, we were given free will and this will be so forever.
But our flesh, which is the cause of human will, wants to take over: whatever it is will live on for eternity in and through the choices it has made. This means that if, through our flesh, we choose to reject God the Creator, the only Son of God, we will lead everything to eternal death – the soul and the flesh – and the flesh will feel its rejection of God for all eternity. Everything it had received will turn against it: the beauty of God will become the ugliness of its no. The intelligence – the mind which gives us the ability to make a choice nourished by the intelligence of God, by the Spirit of The Love – will become aware of its choice: the only form of nourishment it will receive is the one that destroys. All spirit of love will become spirit of hatred, of destruction. The mind will become a constant, constant, constant source of unhealthy nourishment; it will destroy at every fraction of every fraction of every second. Why? Because the spirit we received is a spirit of love. We were made to love one another, we were made to adore God, love God, contemplate God. All of this will be extinguished, and the spirit will therefore become nothingness.
All will be nothing but destruction. All sight, which is the light of God reflected upon us, will be in darkness. We, we have eyesight – we have the eyes of love, we were created to see God's beauty. Whether I look at my sister, whether I look at my brother: I see God's beauty, I see God's choice, I see God's strength, I see God's patience, God's wisdom, for I have the eyes of Christ because I agree to accept what he gives to me: his Life. Jesus looked upon us with the Father's love, and therefore, we were created to see one another as brothers and sisters because we have one single Father: the One who loved us so much that he sent his Son to bring us to him. And so, imagine… if we reject the One the Father chose for us, then our eyes will lose what comes from God, we will be eternally blind; there will be nothing but hatred for us, for we received eyesight in order to see others, so that others could give us love.
When I look at my sister, I see the gaze of God, but that gaze changes into love for me, and then God's love nourishes me. So, if I am eternally deprived of God's gaze, blinded by a great darkness, I will see no one, I will be all alone, without food to feed myself. I will have great hatred for myself; I will destroy myself by my own hatred and this will go on endlessly, for I will no longer have my eyesight, there will be nothing but darkness and darkness will be constantly before me, and this will be so for eternity.
We have the ability to hear. The hearing is the sound of love. Deprive yourselves of external and internal sounds and you will be in a constant state of questioning. We need to hear, we need to hear the Word of God, we need to share the Word of God. If you are a mother and you simply ask your child, “Are you hungry?” – it is God who is asking that child “Are you hungry for me?” If the child answers, “Yes, I'm hungry,” the mother will serve him. Well, God the Father, he will serve his child, he will always give him the graces that will nourish the being that he is. Through the Word we are always in God; through the Word we are always in love with God. God gave us the Word to nourish us. The Word is a source of nourishment. If we reject the Word of Jesus, we will be rejecting all words, we will be rejecting our neighbour’s love, we will be preventing our neighbour from addressing us. Any child who accepts to hear words of comfort accepts them from God. Whatever his religion may be or whichever language he may speak, there is but one language: and it is the one of love. We received the Word to be able to love.
God: “You, my creatures, I nourish you continuously with the Word when your words are love.” Therefore, when we refuse to say good words, along with everything they carry, we don’t nourish ourselves with love – I agree to go on a diet – and this is eternal if we constantly refuse to love and we go as far as rejecting God. God is love; he will never stop talking to us. When the time comes when we have to make a choice for our life, if in that last fraction of a second we say no, then the Word will be extinguished: what will emerge will be cries, the gnashing of teeth, words of hatred that constantly kill the soul. It will be as though our soul, which needs nourishment, were continually martyred by what we refused to be: the Word of God. You see, we are God's creatures, we were made of love, we need God's nourishment. God is constantly with us in order to teach us.
Therefore, what is the greatest danger for us, we who have human intelligence? It’s ignorance: to remain willfully ignorant is to leave room for the one who wants to destroy us. We are children of God and we must let the Spirit of God teach us. God doesn’t deceive us, God nourishes, God feeds. God is the Truth, is the Light, and God is Justice. We will never be able to elude all this. Why? Because we have been immersed in all this – we come from God's love and everything that comes from God's love is nothing but justice.
In these times, God speaks to us with a tongue of fire. He wants to burn away all imperfection; he wants to uproot the evil that has entered us so that we can be truthful, and so that we can take a look at ourselves in and through that truthfulness, because God wants us for himself. He wants us to be in his light. When we have knowledge of God's love, we have all the knowledge we need to go to him; and to go to him is to follow the right path. In order to find the right path we need to know that it’s there, in front of us. To remain ignorant is to place ourselves before paths that are similar to God's paths.
We must not forget that Satan is an imitator, that he knows God's children, because he has studied us, because he has seen us, because he knows God; for he was an angel of light and God's light was reflected upon him. He has known all this and so, through human will, he places false paths before us. In order to have us follow those paths, he maintains us in ignorance. God wants to speak to us in our hearts to enable us to understand the paths that we, we have followed. There should have been only one path – God's path – but we laid out our own paths through the choices we ourselves made, and we were the ones who accepted them. Because we have accepted these paths, God is coming to show us what we have accepted so that we might avoid choosing those paths.
In times of trouble, how many of us have had doubts regarding God's presence in our lives? How many among us have passed judgment on God's choices when there was illness in our lives? How many of us have said, “Lord, what are you doing? There's war? Why do you accept this?” All these are paths that we have laid out for ourselves. God sent us his Son and his Son told us everything. When Jesus was on earth, he shed light on the Old Testament, on the Torah. Jesus knew the Torah and he knew word for word everything there was to know about the law. He, the Son, would use everything that God's children knew. He came to talk about their choices. He came to tell them, “You are living the consequences of the choices which were made before you.” He hid nothing from them, and this upset many people as it isn't always pleasant to hear the truth. And so, they tried to silence the Truth; they tried to crucify God's loving justice.
God comes to speak in our hearts to tell us the truth. We are living the consequences of our choices made before sin. By accepting the cross, God was showing us the path to follow. We must accept to see what we have done to those we have lived with. With God's graces, we must accept what life throws at us: to accept what life throws at us with God's graces is to know that we’re living our consequences. To accept to follow God's path is to say: “Everything belongs to you, God. I consent to present my flesh to you so that you can heal it, so that you can uproot evil, and free me from a flesh that was a slave to sin.” This is what it means to live the Passion of Christ.
To accept the cross is to accept our resurrection. How can we want to be resurrected if we don’t die first? If we accept to die in Jesus we accept to renounce our flesh: “You’re the one who created the flesh. It belongs to you, it no longer belongs to me. I took your flesh, o Christ of love, and I made it suffer. It has become a prisoner of the human will, the one that I accepted. My weakness is so strong within me that I'm constantly falling. By accepting to give you my human will, to leave my flesh in your hands, I am climbing onto the cross, I am leaving my flesh in your hands so that all might be accomplished. You, you accomplished everything up to your last breath of life, up to your last drop of blood, up to your last drop of water. Creation died in that moment and it cried out to the Creator: I place everything in your hands, all is accomplished.” Therefore, we must do the same.
To us, the cross is our resurrection: we enter into the Flesh of Christ, we accept all the sins of our brothers and sisters of the whole world, from Adam and Eve to the last, and we present what we are to the Creator: sinners. For the sake of love, wanting nothing more to do with sin but knowing that I am in you for the resurrection, it is necessary to die in order to be resurrected, and we have not yet been resurrected. When he was on earth Christ promised: “He who believes in me has eternal life. You have the Kingdom of God with you. Believe in the Good News.” Didn’t he talk to us about the Beatitudes? He was telling us about everything we were going to experience. To us, he was the testimonial of God the Father. He's The Love.
The Love came to talk to us, The Love came to show us what we would have to live to the very end. We haven’t yet reached the very end. Yes, we have travelled part of the way with Christ; yes, we have wanted to follow the Ten Commandments of God; yes, we have wanted to live within the laws of God, to taste grace through the sacraments. We have wanted to love one another as brothers and sisters insofar as we were able to. We chose the path we followed based on what we were: a flesh subjected to sin, which has led us to where we are today.
We are children of hope, we are children of faith. Despite all the suffering in world, we believe; despite the great apostasy, we believe. Yes, there is a great apostasy, and this has spread over the entire surface of the earth. We need only look at the wars, we need only look at the epidemics; we need only look into our own eyes filled with worry, with fear, with tears. We lack faith in what Jesus has asked of us. We must believe that the Church has triumphed, but we tried to console ourselves by turning to what was idolatry, and we believed the Antichrist, for when one desires to turn towards the 'self', one is turning to Satan. We’re turning towards the son of Satan: he gave birth to the 'self' and we participated in all this.
All over the world people are talking about the 'self'. Even in times of great suffering people try to have fun, they turn their eyes away from the cross to turn them towards those who are rich. People take material things to places where there is poverty in order to nourish the poor with material things, and they believe that this is good for them. We are being tricked by Satan. The fallen angels never stop fighting us. Souls are suffering all over the world. Our flesh is in a constant state of pride.
We must long for the cross and not for all things that might contribute to our happiness. Happiness is inside us – it’s already there. We must not create what has already been created – we are happiness: give me love and you will discover happiness; join your words to mine and you will know happiness; join your weaknesses to my weaknesses in order to offer them to God and you will discover happiness. We are happiness, we don’t need material things, we don’t need all these lies. If I have to suffer to earn my refuge, well then, thank you, Lord, because my refuge is God's dwelling place, and God's dwelling place is in me and I in him. I am God's dwelling place and God is my dwelling place; he is my only refuge, and I, I am the refuge of love, for when I enter within myself, I am entering my home, my dwelling place. Jesus told us this – he said, “There is a place for you in my Father's house. You all have a home in my Father's house.”
Well, we’re always walking around carrying our dwelling within us and yet, we can't find it. We want a palace; we want to be in God's Kingdom and to have a home that is nothing but splendour; and, to us, splendour is synonymous with precious stones, gold, beautiful fabrics: isn't this our flesh that is still mistreating us? It is made of nothing more than matter, but when we think with the human will, our matter becomes our own possession. We are made of Jesus’ matter and not of the matter that is around us. When we want to be self-sufficient by using what is around us, we are without God, and therefore, we aren’t happy. The refuge is a refuge of love: the place where God is, where we are fulfilled, where God nourishes his creatures, where God clothes his creatures. We have everything we need. If our flesh lacks something, that’s because it is overly focused on the external. Everything is inside us.
Mother Mary lacked nothing on earth. She was very humble person, Mother Mary. She was the person who was filled with the most graces – she lacked nothing. She looked into our eyes and she knew everything about us. That was because she was within herself: she was always with her God. This is what God wants to do with us. Whatever he gave to the Virgin Mary he will give to us, but we will never measure up to Mary because it was from the beginning that Mary gave thanks to God. Do you know the beginning of Mary's story? It is eternal, it is like us – we are eternal – Mary is eternal. And so, let’s understand that Mary never, never came to know imperfection, and from the beginning, God never, never ceased to fulfil her. The number of graces she received is incalculable.
And what about us – we’re imperfect and yet, how many graces have we received, how many graces do we still receive and how many graces are ours! Despite the words of rejection we have uttered to God, here we are listening to the Spirit of God speaking to us through a person who is filled with sins. She speaks because she must speak. Through her imperfection, she hesitated to speak: “Why me? Choose someone else. Why should I present myself – there are others who are much more intelligent than I?” My flesh is still in that state of imperfection and my flesh still has doubts regarding who I am: a child of God. It’s only because God keeps me in graces that I am able to continue. I'm a mother, I'm a grandmother, I suffer. I have children that I would like to take care of the way you do every day; I have grandchildren crying “Nana, are you going away? That’s not nice of you.” Well, I would like to stay home too, but by the graces of God, I choose God.
My flesh never stops causing me pain. I have to learn to silence it; I must always turn to the sacraments in order to always put God before my flesh; I have to silence my thoughts that want to please me; I must often shut my eyes to avoid being drawn to my house; I have to learn to sometimes neglect my laundry at home in favour of God. With God's graces I have learned to no longer eat meat, like chicken and beef, and these are things I really like. I have to say yes and go wherever he wants me to. I've been travelling for seven years; it’s been seven years that I've been working and that I haven’t been getting a full eight hours of sleep. And if I'm lucky, I get to do my errands once every three weeks, once a month, and sometimes, every two months, because my time belongs to God. Sometimes, my heart cries out to God: “When is this going to stop? Please come, Lord!” But when I stand before the cross and I hear Jesus and I hear Mary saying to me: “Give, give of yourself. My children are hungry, my children are thirsty,” then I ask for forgiveness, forgiveness, because I feel that my flesh has gained the upper hand once again. I live only for God, but God takes care, takes care of the being that I am. I know that he takes care of my mother who is 90 years old and whom I haven’t seen in over a month, because, you know, I have to do corrections.
This message, which is being recorded right now, must nourish our minds, our hearts. And so, I have to check the recording to make sure everything is okay. Afterwards, we send it to the transcribers who will write them out. When all that is done, they send it back to my house: hours and hours and hours and hours and hours spent correcting in surrender – because how can I do the corrections if I'm not in Jesus? What will the sentences look like if he doesn’t tell me that this sentence ends with a period and that there's a comma in that one? Sometimes, when he wants me to give of myself even more, he won't answer me: fifteen minutes, half an hour waiting for the Lord! “Lord, I don’t understand. What are you doing?” And then, he gives me a little teaching, a little teaching of half an hour to make me understand that it was a period that he wanted. Why? Because he wants us to give of ourselves, he wants us to follow the same path as his. He who follows the path of Jesus follows in his footsteps.
He came on earth for the children who said no to his Father, and he wants us to live his Life. When he said to me, in the very beginning: “You will feel my pain, my Passion,” I said to the Lord, “Lord, you didn’t let me feel that much.” And he answered me, “I will give you 1%.” I answered, “Lord, that’s not very much!” Now I know that that is quite a bit because it’s his Passion, it’s his Life, and believe me when I say that he doesn’t only give it to me. We all have the Life of God within us and we must live it by his graces. It is only through graces that we are able to live the Life of Jesus, for the Life of Jesus on earth is our life, it is our no’s to his Father. Therefore, we must accept everything.
And so, he has just said, “Rest now, my children.” Thank you, Lord.
 ‘I am in you’ – The Girl of My Will in Jesus addresses a person in the audience to demonstrate God's will, which is to have us live the teaching.