Gathering of Love With God's Action in Plantagenet, Ontario,

Through His Instrument, The Girl of My Will in Jesus  

2007-10-05 Plantagenet


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The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Every time the Lord brings us together, it is to give us many graces: he wants to heal, he wants to liberate.

Sometimes we resist, we resist the Lord's graces; we want him to heal us, we want him to liberate us, but we keep for ourselves whatever is making us suffer, and whatever makes us suffer cannot bring us light. How can we see what God wants to do with us if we keep our sufferings?

God wants to turn us into instruments of love for all children of the earth; God wants to grant us graces, graces of liberation. Therefore, if we want to obtain graces of liberation, we must make more room for him, we must offer up our suffering on a platter of love. Yes, to offer our suffering to God on a platter of love is to open up our heart, it is to open up our heart that cries out, to open up our heart that is spilling over, not always with love but with discouragement, to open up our heart, our heart that seeks, to always do the Will of God through our tears, through our despair.

God wants us to move forward; God wants us to place ourselves in front, in front of our brothers who need us. They need to know that we’re in front of them, that there are those who believe in something, that there are those who believe in the Holy Bible.

We have come to know the Bible to the best of our abilities and we understand it through what we are.

We have read the prophets, we have read their writings, or at least heard their words, which were repeated and which were written down. Well, those prophecies were about us, about those who were going to be among the last to believe despite all the suffering reigning on earth: suffering caused by power over God's children, by the domination of their thoughts, of their hearts, suffering that would cause them to doubt the very Presence of Jesus in the Eucharist, because it has been said that a time would come when people would no longer believe in the Perpetual Presence, in God's Presence, and this was told to the prophets before the birth of Christ.

We look at our suffering, our poor little suffering: “Oh, things aren't going well at home; there's a lot of fighting. My children don’t get along; my children don’t go to mass anymore; my children don’t pray anymore; my children are incapable of listening to me when I talk about God; my children are on edge as soon as I begin saying the word ‘love’; my children are incapable of seeing that there's love around them.”

And this is what our poor little suffering is all about; we put it on display for anyone who will listen to us. All we’re doing is repeating ourselves; we don’t stop to think about what God has told us.

God has told us that there would be suffering. God has told us that, during the end times, we would experience persecution, we would experience conflict, we would experience the great apostasy, we would be faced with great, great hardships, but these great hardships, we’re living in them full time because of everything going on around us! We aren't only surrounded by a lack of faith.

It’s true that we suffer from a lack of faith regarding what God has told us. Well, let’s take a look at what’s going on: the number of illnesses spreading everywhere is incredible. We hear about so and so who has cancer, about another one who has cancer, and another one who has cancer; there are diseases everywhere, viruses that don’t even have a name – we try to find a vaccine and then, we find names for them. We’re waiting, we’re waiting for someone to find a solution to our problems.

Jesus, he told us that he's the Doctor. He's the only doctor we need in these times. Yes, we need doctors to diagnose our illnesses; yes, we need doctors to bring our grandchildren into this world; yes, we need doctors to analyse our aches and pains; yes, we need specialists who will give us even more hope; yes, we need this.

But throughout all this, if we don’t believe in Jesus Eucharist, it would be better to stay at home, it would be better to wait at home, because it’s the same thing: to wait for death at home or to turn to a doctor in whom you will place all your trust is to die, it is to turn towards death.

We can only treat what we’re able to treat; we can only understand what we’re able to understand; we can only analyze what we’re able to analyze.

Whatever is in front of us becomes something that is tangible, but whatever isn't in front of us becomes something that is inexplicable; we’re unable to understand that… (“I forgot to turn on my tape recorder.”) We are not able to understand the Will of God unless God enables us to understand that, without him, we are little; that, without him, we are little even without those instruments (doctors), for he's the one who does everything, he's the one who nourishes us, he's the one who wants to take up all the room, he's the one who wants us to be able to continue to move forward within his loving plans, in his Will.

There we are, calculating: “Okay, I’ll prepare myself, there's something wrong with me; okay, I have faith that you’re there, Lord, that you'll guide me, Lord! Whoops, I notice that this isn't exactly what I'm thinking.”

– How come, Lord, you didn’t think of having me turn on my tape recorder? Marcel[1], hey, where are you Marcel? –   ­

We need one another, we need to be reminded that we are the Church, that we must be together in order to move forward, to be together to support one another, to be together to understand what is to come; we must trust that God is taking care of us, of every one of us.

– “Is it okay, Josée, are you taping? Okay, Josée.” –

You see, every one of us contributes something to the other; we’re together in order to journey towards what is unknown to us but that is known to God.

What would it serve to know what we’re going to live tomorrow? What would it serve to know that so and so has been healed, that so and so wasn’t, that so and so is going to die, if, in the present, we don’t live God's grace, if, in the present, we aren't completely abandoned in his hands? Yes, we will learn that so and so has been healed, but we will have developed a feeling within us, a feeling that turns us into a weak child.

We needed to obtain an answer, an answer ensuring that we remain standing; we needed to know that that person had been healed; well, did this increase our faith? Did this make us more abandoned? Did this add a plus to what we must offer to God? We simply want to know what God has in store for us and what God has in store for others.

This… it’s as though this were producing a vibration within us, a vibration of love, and that vibration of love has been part of our life because we wanted it; and because we wanted it, a movement came about: “I will give you what you ask, so take, take what comes with it. You want to know what I have already given, you want to know my Will? Oh, child of little faith! Oh, child who wants to believe! Oh! Child who wants to be assured that you will be protected tomorrow, for you want to protect your own feelings, you want to protect what you are feeling: you do not want to abandon the being you love, which is yourself, you do not want to abandon yourself.”

“O almighty God, who makes his Will known to us, this is to keep us as what we must be: children abandoned in his hands.”

If we want to know what God wants for a child, then we must also know what God wants for us: God wants us to abandon ourselves, he wants this to come from him and not from us; he wants us to love him before we love ourselves, and before we can respond to our need for love. He wants us to give him all the room. We need love, we need to know, but God, he wants to be loved.

Earlier, Michel was chosen to speak to us about Jesus’ love; he was love to such an extent that his entire being vibrated with love, and God was letting Michel’s love emerge, God was letting Michel’s love emerge: and Michel was giving it to him.

But Michel put Jesus first, before himself.

Jesus wants love, Jesus wants to be loved before we love ourselves, our neighbour; he doesn’t want us to place our thoughts before the Will of The Love, and through our suffering, he doesn’t want one of our needs to take precedence over our love for him.

Jesus is love; he knows what we need, he knows what we need to know. Let’s not get ahead of God, let’s give all the room to our Jesus of love; he fulfils us, he knows what we need, he knows what we need to know.

We, we’re close to the mystics – we can even contact them. Therefore, can you see the temptation to go to them to ask God for something to respond to that feeling: a feeling that hurts, a feeling that raises questions, feelings that want to give everything to God but, at the same time, obtain everything from God – not because we don’t love him – we love God, but we want, we want to be reassured a little, we want to be comforted a little.

But he, Jesus, he opens his arms and he waits, he waits for our unconditional yes, our unconditional love: “You, Jesus, before me.”

How can we understand that we must put God first? To do this, we must create a void within ourselves with the grace of God: “Show me, show me how to be silent, show me how to ask nothing of you, show me how to be here and to accept everything,” then God recognizes his children, then God recognizes his love that bears fruit.

Jesus gave himself up on the cross out of love for us; all the way to the end, Jesus was obedient. He is perfect abandon, an abandon that becomes a model to us.

We also have Mother Mary, Mother Mary who is total abandon, an abandon filled with love for her God; a Mother who gives up her Child, a Mother who offers him out of love, a Mother who says: “Go, my Son,” a Mother who has the look of obedience, a Mother who has the look of abandon: “Everything for God, you the Messiah, you the Saviour.”

So, we must be like Jesus, we must be like Mary, but in order to be like Jesus and like Mary, we must have the Heart of Mary and the Heart of Jesus inside us. If we don’t have the Heart of Jesus and the Heart of Mary, we will have little holes in our heart and those little holes will always lead us to try to figure out what God the Father has in store for us, what God the Father has in store for all those we love.

We must be a true yes if we want to get through all the hardships that are before us and those that are to come, as well: we are living in the end times.

Jesus nourished his apostles by giving them his Life, Jesus gave his Life to the apostles. While on earth, Jesus, at every instant, gave the apostles his Life; he could have, through his power, remained at home with his Mother, and in a single instant, he could have chosen people and taught them without necessarily being with them, without necessarily walking with them, without necessarily eating with them: no. He could have, through all his power, instructed twelve men, who were present during his time, by the almightiness of God, either through dreams or through apparitions; he could have done this, Jesus.

But Jesus left, left his Mother and he walked; he walked with the twelve apostles he had chosen, which God the Father wanted, and he taught them. He showed them obedience, he showed them abandon, he showed them how not to ask themselves questions, he showed them what suffering was, he showed them that, before God, they had to be persons who were weak but strong through his Word.

And so we, we must also be before God and, to remain strong, we must know his Word so as to remain in his Word; all this is a movement of love for us, a movement of knowledge.

What is written in the Gospel is a movement of love for us, movement of light, movement that makes us hope with faith that all has been accomplished, that all is being done as was written by the power of the Holy Spirit in the Scriptures, and all this is for us. Therefore, let’s walk together, let’s discover the Will of God together.

We are allowing ourselves to be instructed by the power of the Holy Spirit; he gathers our hearts to form but one heart: the heart of the Church, a heart that speaks out, a heart that beats with love in the Heart of Mary to die in the Heart of Jesus, to no longer be.

We must no longer be, we are dead: do we or don’t we have a heart of love? And who is The Love? It’s Jesus, we belong to Jesus. If we consent to unite our hearts by a yes, we consent to that heart being in Jesus: that heart no longer belongs to us, it belongs to Jesus, it has disappeared. You see, our feelings belong to Jesus, they don’t belong to us.

When there are people around us who are suffering, well, it’s Jesus who is suffering. Jesus has us feel that feeling of suffering because he felt it before we did.

When we lose someone, when someone by our side has cancer, when someone around us has an incurable disease, well, Jesus, he had it in his flesh, Jesus has known that suffering; Jesus knows what we endure because he experienced it before we did.

Therefore, we must be together; it is together that we must offer our suffering: the suffering of one becomes the suffering of another, the suffering of the other becomes the suffering of yet another, the suffering of that one becomes the suffering of this person, here, in front of me: we share the same suffering.

We have lost a loved one; most of us here knew him, because those who are here have also been on the internet, and they were witness to the fact that this person, who passed away, was a being who gave himself on behalf of others.

Marcel is a source of suffering to us, but it belongs to God, it doesn’t belong to us, and even that of his wife belongs to God.

Even a mother who loses her child, well, that suffering belongs to God, her child belongs to God, to Jesus, for death is the consequence of sin, and Jesus, he suffered this in his flesh.

This is the only way for us to recover from this; if we keep that suffering for ourselves, we won't be able to help one another, we won't be able to help a person who will see his child die, we won't be able to help a person who will see his mother die, because our suffering will become a personal suffering.

I lost my husband, no one can understand this – it’s my suffering but it’s also everybody’s suffering: “I give it to you, Jesus; you have experienced it in your flesh, it belongs to you. Give me graces, for these graces, I need them; they’re part of all the other graces, for what you give to me, you will give to them as well, because one day they will lose a loved one, they will need peace.”
When we experience peace while a person we love is in front of us, lying down, lifeless, that’s because God has granted graces, has granted graces to those who, before us, gave that suffering. The more we give that suffering, the more the people who will experience that suffering after we do, will receive peace, will receive joy.

Imagine! We are joyful to know that a loved one has passed away in the Will of God, to come face to face with his judgement and, in his love, he accepts to be where God wants him to be.

What we are living, we are living with faith; what we are hearing, we are hearing it through the power of the Holy Spirit.

A loved one is gone, a loved one gave himself up, a loved one received much love; he received so much love that he saw his life even before he died. With God's grace, he saw what he was and he liked what he saw because what he was seeing was Mercy flooding him with light: he was becoming light for us.

Yes, Marcel became light for us; he offered himself for us, to bear witness to the love God had for him. He saw himself as a vain being, a being who had difficulty separating himself from what he was before he received grace, and when he saw grace, when he felt grace, his entire being became love to such an extent that not once did he lose his smile, not for a single moment, not for a single moment did he regret being with us.

His thoughts for those he loved were so beautiful and so immense because the Will of God was upon him. What he was accepting unconditionally was the Will of God, a love that swims, that swims and swims, and that moves forward and forward, a love that tastes, that savours, a love that allows itself to dive into the depths to re-emerge entirely loved by God, for he had tasted that love, a love that wanted him to be perfect.

Yes, Marcel came to know the agony of death and Marcel is risen, for he had seen the light, he had seen the light through what he was: God had permitted this. God permitted that he be entirely love in order to show us, in order to show us that everything he was bore witness to love up until the very end, because what he gave to his loved ones was the truth. Everything that he was enabled them to feel inner peace, everything that he was enabled joy to spring forth within them and this filled, filled the place where he was, because God wanted it to be so to show us that we must follow the same path.

If Lise, if Yves, if Lucie, if Edith were at peace and were joyful while life was leaving Marcel, that’s because they had been prepared; they had been prepared to give us something, to give us Marcel, so that he might be, for us, a movement of love that we were meant to receive and to know. They saw the suffering and they gave; they saw the suffering and they hoped; they saw the suffering and they surrendered him; they saw the suffering and they gave thanks, gave thanks for they were there to the end.

Remember this being who gave himself – he was filled with strength. Nothing was able to trouble that being and we saw this, we saw that he was constantly, constantly losing his strength, and this was willed by God. For those who witnessed this, we know what Marcel lost physically and despite all this, he was with us, he sang with us, he praised God with us, he adored God with us, he was always present; nothing could stop this man.

Well then, if Marcel received this, why do we say that we aren't able to have what he received? Because a being who passes away and another who stays behind, when they are very close, live exactly the same thing.

When we’re in love, everything the other feels, we feel it; we feel it through his eyes, through his gestures, through his feelings, because his feelings emerge through his words and through his hearing, because he knows how to listen. When a being is in great pain, the other is also in great pain and we must be united in order to obtain graces together.

Isn't this what Lise experienced? I was witness to this and so were her children: I wasn’t close to Yves but I know that her two daughters saw this with love, and Yves did also.

It is the Will of God that wants us to learn that we must give suffering to God, with the Heart, the Heart of Mary and the Heart of Jesus, in order to get through what awaits us; we must trust in God and not be afraid of tomorrow.

Our needs, it is God who nourishes them; he's the one who knows what is good for us to learn.

The more we become complete abandon, offering, love, grace, well, the more those who are with us on earth and who will have to go through the same thing, will receive graces, will have strength; suffering will become more and more bearable to them.

Let’s begin, let’s begin by living the very presence of God's love among us, because we have seen it. We cannot say, “Oh! I don’t know, I haven't see it” – everybody has seen it.

Everything that we are, we are so together; we are the Church, we are love, we are a movement that moves forward.

Most of you know very well that Marcel is among us, and that Heaven has enveloped him in light; it led him to Him, to God: this is of the Will of God.

Mother Mary stayed by his side; she sent Father Clément and believe it or not, I wasn’t there but I believe it when someone says that it smelled like roses – I have smelled them often – and they said that is smelled like roses.

Father Clément told me last night, that on Friday when he went to Marcel, he said, “I don’t know what made me bring everything I needed to say mass, it just happened; it’s as if my actions were being carried out without my thinking about it.” But this, this is the power of the Holy Spirit. Everything took place in the Will of God, God had prepared everything.

You see, God knows our needs and he grants them to us the moment when we need them; well, this is true, this is for every one of us. Therefore, let’s go, let’s move forward for that is when we are real.

But Jesus has often told us this, hasn’t he, that we are real only when we live in the present? To live in the present is to live what is to come: that’s when we’re truly in the Will of God.

Let’s not be afraid; John Paul II has often told us this and Benedict XVI must say it often, as well: don’t be afraid.

The Will of God is nothing but love.

If a person leaves us to go to God, well, that’s love! Look at Jesus on the Cross, that’s love. Therefore, through our suffering, let’s be certain that when God the Father calls one of his children to him, that’s love.

I want to say something to Lucie: “Lucie, do you remember, at the hospital, I asked to share something?” And I asked you, “Are you ready to share?” We could see that Marcel was suffering – his stomach was huge! And so, I said to Lucie, “Lucie, do you want to share a portion of his suffering?” And I said, “I will share a portion of it.”

Then, I left for New Brunswick; he didn’t give me that portion but when I came home, I received it; I almost didn’t make it here, but the Holy Spirit gave me just enough to understand how good the Lord is!

Thank you, Lord. Thank you, Marcel.

Now, we’ll ask Laurent – Laurent, a song! A song that will open our hearts to accept God's sufferings out of love for God.

Thank you, Lord.


Laurent: ♪♪♪   


[1] Marcel: the Lord's chosen one, whose mission it was to look after the recordings. He passed away on September 16, 2007.