Gathering of Love With God's Action in Tétagouche, New Brunswick,
Through His Instrument, the Girl of My Will in Jesus
2007-09-20 – Part 1
The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: The Lord brings us together because he wants to nourish us, the Lord wants to comfort hearts.
Although we’re here today, there isn't a single one of you who took that initiative – it was God; you simply listened to your heart and you said yes, and he, God, he led you where he wanted you to be.
All this was prepared a long time ago, it’s not from today.
The Lord prepared this moment in eternity for all children of the world, not only for us, who are gathered here, but for everybody.
There are those who can't see well – maybe if we moved a little closer and we tried to make sure everyone can see… You can't all see, right? If I get up, you can see me a little better, right? Well then, Lord, you have to give me strength.
Is it okay like this? Are there people who hear less than others? Okay. Do you want to come closer? Bring your chair here, please, because there are times when the sound will be lower and I don’t control that movement.
In the back, do you want to come a little bit closer? We have room here; we’re going to put Jesus of love… yes, you can put him here.
You see, when one of us gives a yes to God, well, we form but one heart, we form the very Heart of God; he's the Church, he's The Love. And so, when we make an effort to let others to ahead of us, in order to give them a part of ourselves, well, that God's work, it isn't our work.
The effort we need to make is nothing more than saying yes: “Everything for you, Lord, everything for my brothers and my sisters of the whole world.”
What we’re doing today isn't only for our little selves; if we’re doing this for our little selves, we’ll leave here and it will stop there. All those graces that we will have tasted won't enter inside us.
We are the Church, we are members in Jesus; so, what we’re receiving at this very moment is for all those we carry within us, without exception, without exceptions due to religion, to language.
If it’s a violent person or a gentle person, a patient person, an impatient person, that is the work of the Lord; it’s up to him to distribute all his graces so they can let themselves be transformed.
What God is asking of us is to form only one yes: “Yes, everything for you, Lord; use us; we want to be instruments in your hands.”
If he chose me as an instrument, that’s because he had already chosen you as well.
If I were standing here in front and speaking to walls, well then, there wouldn’t be anyone to receive, but you’re sitting here with your yes: “Yes, Lord, I am your instrument, use me for those who need your graces; I, I will take some, and you will distribute whatever you think is good for all of us; it’s not up to me to manage your graces – they don’t belong to me; I belong to you as they belong to you.
If I, I agree to give you my life for others, that’s because it was you who enabled me to know this: I was ignorant, you instructed me; I was deaf and you gave me hearing; I was blind and now I can see; I was poor in my surges of love and you came to enrich me; I was alone with myself, without hope, and today, here I am with all the others, filled with hope to come to you in your Kingdom.”
Every one of us, we are movements of love for those who haven’t yet arrived where God is waiting for them; this is what we are at this very moment – we’re doing God's Will, not our will.
Our will, it has led us where it wanted us to go, but our will is blind, deaf, sick, angry, afraid, selfish and envious. The human will knows all flaws because the human will is the knowledge of good and evil.
But evil has increased since the sin of Cain; and so, human will nourished itself with movements that have made God's children suffer.
Let’s take a look at ourselves: we suffer, we have illnesses, we’re poor, there's war… Oh! We, in Canada, we’re aware of the war but in tiny amounts compared to other countries where people are living in an era of violence, of war. Fear is constantly part of their lives.
For us, our fear is to lack material things – this, this is our fear: we’re afraid of becoming poor, we’re not afraid of war; do we ever think about it? This morning, did you think, “Ah! I hope there won't be a war in our country. Thank you, Lord, I live in a country at peace. Thank you, today my children won't know what bombs are.”
We didn’t even think about this this morning, but we thought of our well-being. At the end of month, there are large bills coming – we need money! Well, I put money here, I put some there for my future, for my present… boy, do I ever have debts! My future is taken care of. I managed everything, I'm ready for the month. Well, this is how our lives are, we Canadians!
Other countries also have their sufferings because it’s a suffering that we brought on ourselves; we ourselves have brought on our own suffering through our choices.
No one told us to worry: “Is the cheque going to get here or not! What am I going to do, I have my rent, I have my pension? Ah! The price of milk is going up. I would like to get a new couch. Here comes winter; do I have a good pair of boots? I’ll go shopping; are there going to be enough sales?” All these, these are our own choices.
We’re the ones living in all this: we develop our own illnesses, we develop our own worries, we’re always on the edge of depression, we live in stress, so they say.
Yes, we live in our choices and we’re tasting the consequences of our choices.
Stress is a movement that seems to come into our lives like a wave; that wave is part of our lives; it’s fed by everything that is external and when it enters us, it strikes everything we are. It strikes our nerves, our nerves send this to our stomach, our stomach turns this into heartburn, our heartburn turns this into pain, we get allergies, we have arthritis everywhere, we’re incapable of keeping our memory intact – there are holes everywhere.
All these are our movements inside us and if the Lord were to tell us everything this strikes inside us, there would be a lot: we would discover all our little aches and pains. All this is because it came from the outside, it didn’t come from inside us; God's child had only God's graces.
Spiritual life is our life; it only needs God's graces, it doesn’t need what is external.
But we, due to our human will, we let everything enter us: “Ah! You have bad news; what is it about? Oh, yes, there's been hail in such and such a place. Oh, really! There's been hail. Oh, yes, you didn’t see but there was a flood in such and such a place. That’s true, there was a flood; when did you hear about this? Oh, yes, I heard about it when they announced the war and that there had been an explosion. Oh, you know, it was at the same time as in England where there's a lot of concern about bombs. Was there a bomb scare? Well, yes, it happened at the same time as the hurricane in the United States. They had a hurricane there as well? Well, yes, they had a hurricane; didn’t you hear about it? Well yes, it happened at the same time as I was watching television and everything that was going on. Oh, really? Which day were you watching television? Wait a minute, on that day this event occurred, this event, no, it wasn’t that one, it was after that one...” Well all this is our life.
This is our life; all these things have been our choices; we turn our life into a yes to all that is external: we’re the ones who agree to nourish ourselves with all this.
Our human will gave us a taste of it: “Oh! It’s fun to learn, I can talk to my neighbour. It’s fun to learn, I can speak up now when I go to a meeting. It’s fun to learn because I know what I know – this is good for my memory.” You see, our human will nourishes us.
We, we accept this nourishment, which has become part of our own habits: “Well yes, I usually watch television before going to bed; I usually have the newspaper at my door when I get up; I usually turn my radio on at a certain hour, to this station or that station; I usually listen to certain things when I'm in my car; hey, I buy myself anything I need to keep myself up to date so that no one can say that I'm behind the times.” You see, these are our habits.
We have been given these life habits and we nourish ourselves with them, and now, because we nourish ourselves with them, well, we have also adopted a good habit: to go to our pharmacy and to take whatever we need to calm down, to take whatever we need to be able to sleep, to take whatever we need to get rid of our heartburn, to take whatever we need to reduce our headaches, to take whatever we need to increase or diminish our appetite; to diminish it, well, this goes hand in hand with a good diet. All this is our way of living, all this: our choices.
We have turned our life into a well-managed life for today’s world. It’s today’s world that has made us what we are today.
What is today’s world? Well, today’s world is everything from the past that has become a habit for a person. At the end of one hundred years, that same habit is still there, but it took on others. Afterwards, at the end of one thousand years, that same habit along with the other habits has become something that: “But it’s completely normal that I live like this; this is what life is all about!”
And so, all this has led us today, two thousand and some years after Jesus Christ: “Oh, come on, who’s this Jesus Christ? Who is this man? What are you talking about?” “Oh, didn’t you hear? He was a great prophet two thousand and seven years ago.” “What? He was a great prophet!” “Of course, we believed in it; today, we’re free from this. That was in the past. That’s for all those who want to believe in something and who got hooked on it: a good crutch. They walked for two thousand and seven years with a crutch; today, us, we’re really free from all of it. Oh! Us, we know what the horoscope is. We know about stones. We know about metal. We know all about the stars. Hey, we know all this, we have evolved!”
Well! Stones come from the time of Cain, the horoscope comes from the time of Cain, reading the stars comes from the time of Cain. You see, we claim to be evolved but we’re still in the Stone Age.
Jesus is the new Man, Jesus is our path of life, Jesus is our righteousness, Jesus is our peace, Jesus is our life, our breath, our well-being, happiness.
Before Cain, there were our first parents. Our first parents heard for the first time: “I shall send you a Saviour.” And this was in the very beginning, the very beginning of man.
Don’t believe that we come from a monkey, because the monkey, it really existed, the monkey that resembled man really existed. It existed because demons possessed animals, they transformed animals, they mutated up to the point of wanting to resemble man.
Yes, this is the truth because God, through his almightiness, has enabled us to live a moment in time: he took us where no human is able to go.
We heard all this in 2007, in May; we heard this for the first time and it exposed something that we didn’t know.
Oh! There were many…, they didn’t want to know, not because they weren't asking themselves questions. We know that we’re God's children and that our first parents were Adam and Eve, and this is enough for us.
Although there are people who speak about the first man called Homo sapiens, although there are people who speak to us about all this, it goes right over our heads; this isn't what we want to hear.
We know that our first parents… our parents spoke to us about Adam and Eve, the nuns spoke to us about Adam and Eve, our priests spoke to us about Adam and we are absolutely convinced of this; we went forward through all that knowledge and we got through it all while keeping our faith.
Well, because we gave our yes, our little yes, God began to slowly transform us up until he spoke to us about what had happened during those times.
All this didn’t nourish our curiosity but it brought us healing, liberation, because we learned: we learned why woman wears make-up, we learned why woman loves jewellery, we learned why woman loves to seduce, how she learned to dance, how music became to us something that takes us where we shouldn’t go; we learned what magic is, witchcraft; we learned what goddesses were, all those things.
Oh! Then we saw little things that were and that we had accepted in our life, and we also learned why man began to lose his strength, began to hide himself, began to take care of his affairs away from others’ eyes, to live an unbridled sexuality.
All this was revealed to us, all this was for the purpose of healing and liberating us; why? Because it was time, it was time to learn.
We’re living in a time of graces, we’re living in a time when the flesh is letting itself be freed of its chains.
Human will is no longer for us; it is in God's hands; he lets us keep our human will but he's teaching us to no longer use it – just like Mother Mary; Mother Mary didn’t use her human will.
And so, slowly, he's showing us, he's showing us how to no longer use our human will and why we shouldn’t use our human will.
All this is to always enable us to go forward in Jesus, in his Church, to have complete faith that we are in the very presence of the One who gave us his Life: a Life of love.
The Son of God made Man is in our life; the Son of God made Man is what we were meant to be because we must be Jesus, we must be in the likeness of the Son of God, but we are not so.
Jesus had his Father's gaze, Jesus had his Father's hearing; Jesus, when he would carry out movements, they were his Father's Will, he was in movements of love, he loved unconditionally.
No man has been able to love like Jesus loved us, none. And so, he wants us to be like this; it isn't easy to be like this but God, he's looking after it. It’s God who will render us in the likeness of the Son of God made Man, it’s God who will make us perfect like God the Father is perfect, not us.
We, we must give our yes every day, our yes every day such as it is: if it’s a hesitant yes, if it’s a vain yes, if it’s a doubtful yes, well Jesus, he knows us, he won't come to slap our hands: “Hey! Your yes this morning wasn’t exactly to my liking!” He's the one who transforms that yes; he gives us graces according to the yes we utter daily.
If, two days ago, I said a yes of abandonment with all my love: “Yes, Lord, I want to give you my life, I give you all those that are in me, take everything, Lord,” well then, he opens up inside us movements of love, of graces.
During that day, he will have us live movements that will liberate and heal us. “On that day, inside of me I felt a doubt dating back to my childhood; what is this thing that’s rising up inside me? When mom asked me to go and bring my plate to the counter and I let it fall, I remember my father slapped me on the head.”
And so, it rises up: “Oh, come on, why?” So, I give my yes, “I give you this, Lord, this consequence, I have been living it for such a long time; I give you the choices I made my entire life because of this, which was before sin.”
God knows that we were afraid from that moment on, God knows that we have lacked confidence in ourselves from that moment on, God knows that authority was painful to us because of that moment, God knows that we have been incapable of forgiving ourselves from that moment on, God knows that we were incapable of loving ourselves, we were hiding ourselves: “I'm not worth loving,” but God knows all this.
And so, God is coming to heal that day and we feel peace: “Thank you, Lord.” We feel joy: we would like to, we would like to talk about it because we have been liberated.
Well, that yes brought us others during the day; it brought us the joy of saying: “But all those who lived this before me – I don’t know but it could go way, way, way back, hundreds and hundreds of years – well, I give this to you.” So, this movement will come and take all movements and it will come to reawaken something that caused us sorrow in the past, it will reawaken our sorrow, it will reawaken our sorrow, it will reawaken our sorrow, and this, this will happen in all members of the Church, not only within us, in all members of the Church: this is that little yes of love we gave that day.
If another day, a yes is given: “I had a bad night, oh, I give you my yes. Oh! My goodness, my daughter is coming over, then I give you my yes, and I give you all those who are in me, Lord. I have to get up, she's coming, and she’s knocking on the door.”
Ah! Then the Lord will take that yes, he will give it movements according to that yes: one grace, one grace will reach us: “Oh! I feel stronger today, those graces will give me strength because my daughter is coming to tell me that she's separating from her husband; she's taking the two children and she's coming home. Oh, Lord!”
He, he knew this; he takes that little yes and he strengthens it through grace and then I remember, I remember that one day, I said to my husband, “If you’re not happy, get out. If you’re not happy with the meal, you make supper!” Now I remember.
And so, I give, I give what I remember: “Take this, Jesus, you know the cause of my impatience that day. You, you know what was before me that caused me to make that choice. I had a temptation before me and I didn’t see it: Satan was there to needle me and I fell into his trap.
Oh! I remember, mom! One day, mom said the same thing to dad and it hurt me so much; I went to my room, and then, I said, ‘Jesus, my father can't leave; what are we going to do without him?’
And so, we remember this; we remember that we were always afraid from that moment on, we were afraid to lose someone we loved; we remember that our mother had been angry that day, and because she was angry, well, we didn’t get any dessert, right? So, I remember all this.”
Well, this rises up, we give it: cause, choices and consequences.
We stop for a moment, and then we say, “My God, here is my daughter with her two children, I give this to you; give me the strength to keep quiet so that I don’t let my two grandchildren see my worry, the one I experienced when I was very little.”
This, this is the grace God grants because of the yes: the strength, the strength to keep quiet so we don’t take ourselves for Jesus.
We’re a mother, we’re a father, we’re a brother, we’re a sister, and well, we all have two shoulders, so let’s use our shoulders: “Come, mom is here. Come, my little ones, grandmother is here, she loves you. We’ll pray over this, we’ll give this to Jesus.”
If we say this to our two grandchildren, well, maybe our daughter isn't ready to hear this yet, it will make her feel guilty: ‘That’s it, I'm married, and she just told me again that I sinned before Jesus. Oh, no! I'm going to be forced to put up with this here; I just left someone, I come home and mom is going to drive me crazy because of this.”
She knows, she knows she has just done something painful, she knows she has just hurt Jesus; she's going to hide, she will try to not talk about her sadness; to avoid feeling the pain, she won't want to hear about Jesus, she won't want to hear about the Ten Commandments of God, she won't want to hear about prayers for the time being.
So, very gently, the children will help grandmother bring peace to her heart, to heal wounds; prayers are there to bring graces and those graces will help her, not our words. She needs love, she needs that shoulder, which is Jesus’ shoulder, not ours, but Jesus’ shoulder.
What would Jesus say if he saw that child arriving with her two children? He knows her heart, he knows how much she resisted this, he knows the tears she shed every night.
Yes, Jesus also knows that she's a scatterbrain, but she was like this because of the consequences of this world: television, radio, dancing, games, card games, keeping physically fit, diets, beauty, too much clothing, nice decorations, trips, music, perfume. All this is the bewilderment that we, we have put in our life since the first women who learned this from the demons.
He, Jesus, knows this; he won't throw stones at his child because he knows his child’s heart; he knows why her heart has hardened, he knows why her little heart has become heavy, so heavy that you could say it was a stone.
He will go through love to make a little crack in that heart, to let graces enter it and then, her little heart will start beating again through yeses.
Because there will still be another yes that needs to be said the following day; we will say yes: “Yes, I give this to you, Lord, I give you my life, I give you all those I carry. Come and help me because the house is a mess, the children have turned everything upside down, but I give this to you; this is my yes.”
You see, that yes is another yes, a yes that cries out, a strong yes, a yes that has both feet on earth; it’s different from the other one we gave at first: “Hey, yes, Lord, my life is yours. Now the house is all upside down. Now there's shouting in the house. Oh! My goodness, the television was on yesterday, late, and I don’t even watch television anymore – it’s just for my movies about saints – and now it was for programs for the children, and whatever. Oh! My goodness, but my heart hurts today!”
And then, Jesus will give graces, Jesus will give graces of patience; Jesus, he knows what is in our life.
Then, as soon as those graces enter us, today we’re going to live something: “Oh! I left my clothes all over the place too. I slammed the door too. I made noise too before going to bed; I didn’t worry about the adults who had to go to work in the morning. I laughed in bed with my little sister, and I had lots of fun. Oh! My goodness, did this bother my sisters, my mother and my father that much? Because dad was really mad: ‘Come downstairs and shut up!’ We go downstairs: ‘Show me your hand,’ and a big slap on the hand. ‘Show me your other hand,’ and a big slap on the other hand. We would go back upstairs, and we went to bed crying.”
Well, we’re reliving this; now we realize: “Oh, I give you this. My father, I caused him to have movements of anger; I give you the cause, choices and consequences. And my sisters: ‘Are they ever going to shut up – I work tomorrow. They can sleep tomorrow morning but we have to get up because we have to catch the bus.’”
And now, we’re thinking about all this. Oh! It rises up, it rises up: “Oh, my goodness, I have something to give you today, Lord: cause, choices and consequences.” And then, we’re going to give all those who had more than two children, the large families that went through this: there were many of them.
“So, I give this to you, Lord, I give this to you,” because we’re going to remember; we’re going to remember that our mother came from a family of 14, 15, 16 children, and she too, went through this. We’re going to remember that our father went through this; today, it’s easy for him to raise his voice because he went through this. And so, we give, and we give and we give.
You see, the yeses we give every day enable us to discover what has entered our life and led us to movements that made us waver – up, down, up, down, I forget, I keep quiet, I don’t want to think about it anymore, I shut this away inside myself, it no longer exists; I forget, I don’t want to think about it anymore, I shut this away in the deepest part of myself, I don’t want to think about it anymore: if we don’t think about it anymore, is it gone?
Those movements aren’t gone; they’re in our life and we go through life with all this. We drag words around with us that aren’t even ours, we drag movements around with us that were carried out by others, and that we saw enter into us and that hurt us: we accepted all this.
We were witnesses to feelings and we took those feelings and we let them enter us, and this hid itself somewhere inside us; where? I don’t know; but Jesus, he's going to take all this.
The yes, this is what it’s all about: “Yes, I give you my life; yes, I give you all my brothers and my sisters.” And when, during the day, through the power of the Holy Spirit, an event occurs in our life, it rises up, it rises up: “I give you this, Lord: cause, choices and consequences.” The rest is up to God; I did what I had to do.
My yes in my life represents my life that I'm putting in God's hands; I don’t want to put my daughter in God's hands – she will have to do it.
But since I give my life and those who are in me who have experienced the same thing as me, well, my daughter is part of them, my son is part of them, my grandchildren are part of them, my father, my mother, who are in Purgatory, are part of them; if they’re in Heaven, they’re still part of them because they had to go through purification for the consequences of their sins in order to go to God's Kingdom: they’re part of them.
But all this is still in our life; them, they’re okay, but us, we’re still living it; and so, God, he takes charge of everything.
He's the Saviour, it isn't us. He's the Light, it isn't us. He's the Bread of life, it isn't us. He's the Wine of life, it isn't us. But the more we give the Lord those movements, well, the more he takes them.
When he takes them, he gives to us, he nourishes us: he nourishes us with his Bread of life, with his Wine of life, with his light; he nourishes us with his wisdom, with his kindness, with his gentleness, with his patience; he nourishes us with the radiance of his purity.
Well, when we give, this fills up something that was stolen, that was taken by Satan, because when we agreed to accept something inside us that came from the outside, well, it became lodged inside us and it took something that belonged to us: our purity. And then, it was replaced by impurity, and other things, as well: kindness by malice, and he replaced patience with impatience.
Satan dwells in us only if we invite him in; this means that we have to say: “You are my master.” Ah! Now he can dwell in us, otherwise he can't dwell in us.
But, on the other hand, all the external impure things we accepted that don’t belong to us and that we allow to enter us – he uses this; he can use anything that is impure in us and that has lodged itself in our flesh.
Our flesh is our thoughts, our gaze; these are part of our flesh. What we hear, then, our hearing is part of our flesh; anything that is movement is part of our flesh; feelings, our heart, are part of our flesh, and so, he uses this.
We were created in God's likeness, but we have turned ourselves into a being who bears the ugliness of what is within him: we have become as ugly as our sins.
One day while I was inside myself, the Lord showed me a being – he was so ugly, but so ugly – it was so disgusting to see all this: his deformed face, all his features that seemed to sink into his flesh and taking on different shapes.
And all the things emerging from that skin – it wasn’t like the skin we, we see – it was more animal-like; the animal we know is still much more attractive. The being I saw was so ugly, so ugly, and then, I saw him transformed.
And, he said, “I showed you what was inside him, in that being; what the evil inside had done to him, what he looks like on the inside;” and there was no beauty there!
You see, Jesus, he, he wants to return our beauty to us, he wants our soul to be joyful, because our soul is joyful when it receives the sacraments, when it receives purity from its Spouse, because the sacraments are nourishment to us.
But our flesh, our famous flesh, it hasn’t received any of that beauty, but it receives graces through the soul, because it’s the soul that receives graces; and so, the soul, it gives the flesh strength to go forward, patience to continue, hope; those are the yeses we give and this, this grace, it’s there to sustain us.
It is Jesus who keeps us alive, it’s Jesus. If we’re able to look at one another, if we’re able to love one another, if we’re able to share, to be part of a loving union, well, that’s through the power of God.
So, we’re all united in leaving all the room to Jesus; this is why he says, “Give me your life and give me the lives of all those you carry within you,” because inside us, we carry all the children of the world: we carry the militant, triumphant and purifying Church.
All this is inside us, we are complete; it isn't because Adam and Eve came many thousands of years before us that they’re not in us: they are in us.
Jesus doesn’t separate himself from his flesh, Jesus is the Eternal Flesh, he's the Alpha and the Omega, he's omnipresent, he's also Man-God: he is, he doesn’t separate himself from what he is: God.
So, we’re all in Jesus, and those who are in Purgatory, it isn't because they’re in Purgatory that they have become separated from love; they agreed to be purified by love. And so, love is for them; they’re in The Love, all the movements they carry out are out of love for God. Therefore, they are part of us.
All those who are on earth, and who must carry out their movements on earth, God's works, in order to go to God's Kingdom, are in us.
We’re all in Jesus, we’re in Jesus here, on the outside, we’re on earth; there's all this oxygen we breathe, there's all this light around us: all this, this is in Jesus.
Jesus is living matter; Jesus is all that is movement; outside of Jesus there's nothing. He is from the Father and the Father gave him everything. Therefore, we are in Jesus: believe in Jesus and you will have eternal Life.
Jesus isn't a simple movement; he isn't just a light, the Light of the world who was laid in a manger, who walked upon the earth, who died on the Cross, was resurrected, who will come back and whom we can see by the power of the Holy Spirit, received by God the Father in the Host, the Bread and the Wine – he's more than this, Jesus – he's our breath, he's our light, he's the air we breathe, he's the love we need; we’re in him, we’re in Jesus.
We live our life in him; anything outside of him is not life, it’s death. We’re alive, Jesus is alive, and so we’re in Jesus.
You see, he's more than what we believe, Jesus – we walk in him, we eat in him – he's the Divine Will, he's the Alpha and the Omega. All that is past is Jesus; all that is present is Jesus; all that is future is Jesus – it’s Jesus!
We are in Jesus, we are movement of love, we are in the mercy of Jesus, because when we make Jesus sad, when we don’t believe, well, we’re in the mercy of Jesus constantly.
Jesus loves us unconditionally, he lets his Precious Blood flow over us, and so we go forward, we go forward, and we go forward until we discover that we need to rest.
Therefore, let’s take a ten minute break.
Thank you, Lord.