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The Girl of My Will in Jesus
 

2012-01-08 – A Time of Surrender

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: … I didn’t know that what I had experienced in Columbia was related to this… I just realized it now: we criticize, and not only do we criticize, but it’s for everything we’re experiencing; and now I understand why he did it…

Q. Anyway, as far as I'm concerned, I'm going to ask for graces. I don’t know what for, Lord, but sometimes it can be because I was critical, because of something I ate, or for just about anything! Sometimes, it’s just little things, and then, you realize what you said.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: What makes you realize that you have just criticized?

Q. It must be the Lord, the Holy Spirit, because often, when we don’t behave properly, it’s the Holy Spirit who…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: That’s the suffering of Christ rising back up to the surface from inside you. The Lord, he knew you even before you were born. When he was on the Cross, he consented to take that criticism upon himself. And so, since he's aware of it, since he lived it, then, in that moment when you criticize, he has you feel it, he has you feel it in his mercy so that you aren't crushed by it, so that you can correct your behaviour. You can ignore this. In a fraction of a second, you feel: “Wow! What have I done?” Without saying “What have I done?” you feel it; this is faster than words. But you can either ignore it – continue to criticize – or you can say, “Oh! Forgive me, Lord, I have just criticized again!” If you arrive at “forgive me, Lord, I have criticized,” then that’s because you received help from inside yourself.

In all the children we carry within us, Jesus engenders kindness, he engenders gentleness, tenderness; he enables them to feel the presence – the presence: “You are not alone; we are here to help you.” Sometimes, this happens and we don’t realize that others, who came before us, have helped us and that they dwell in us. We have the militant, triumphant and purifying Church; therefore, those people are with us. They have already allowed Jesus to save them, even for that little bit of criticism; they are already saved. That means that they could have gone to purgatory for thousands…, a thousand years: one day is like a thousand years. We’re not talking about time as we know it but rather about time in purgatory.

The time spent in purgatory… Jesus doesn’t want them to go to endure such great suffering for a certain period of time, and so, what does he do? He has us feel his mercy. And whom does he use? Children who have also been through what we’ve been through. They received strength. Those who suffered, the first Christians – now we know how many years, hundreds of years – they suffered for about three hundred years, isn't that right? And so, those people are martyrs. They gave us strength; that strength is present inside us. So, we stop at a certain point, and in a fraction of a fraction of a second, we think about it: “Oh, oh! Great! I have just criticized someone.”

And even more so today: today, we are in the time of the purification of the flesh, and now, not only do the souls in purgatory help us, but now the Lord is bringing us children of mercy who will help us. That’s why the Lord wants us to accept the mantle of criticism, the mantle of anger, the mantle of gluttony. All of them, all of those no’s that he spoke of, we will have to live them, to feel them – why? Because if you accept to go through the suffering of criticism, then suffering that is accepted is suffering that is changed into an act of love. An act of love, therefore, is mercy, it heals. And that’s why the Lord says to us: “Do not worry. Be in this time of surrender. I shall give you graces.” And this is what we’re living: a time of surrender so we can be children of mercy for all of God's chosen children.

Q. So, if you’re in the presence of… you refuse.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Causes, choices and consequences, you refuse them, to the foot of the Cross, Jesus…

Q. The Lord tells us to stay in his mercy. How do we stay in his mercy all the time? Right now, I understand because you said that, within that fraction of a second when we realize that we have said one word too many or that we have criticized, then we can enter into his time of mercy. But at other times, how do we remain in God's mercy all the time?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: But it’s even more than that! You know that criticizing makes your brothers and your sisters suffer. You, you’re a child who needs love, but you have just criticized; so then, you give the causes, choices and consequences, right? You refuse death because that is death. It is death that leads us to experience earthly death – it is a spirit of death. Therefore: “Thank you, Jesus, for sending death to the foot of the Cross.” He heals and he delivers; the moment he heals, the moment he delivers, what happens? There's something inside you that is freed, something that heals: you become light. God is freeing you from your chains: “I understand. I will help my sister, my brother – billions of them, more than five billion people need me.” So now, I'm within them; I keep myself in all those children. And in that moment when I heal, I'm letting God deliver me: everyone is healed, everyone is delivered of a movement, of a criticism that created a source of bad nourishment for everyone.

But I, I keep myself in them; I'm there, I'm within them. I allow mercy to emerge from me: Jesus who is lying on that cold slab of stone, Jesus who is covered in blood, Jesus whose tears are flowing, Jesus who loves his Father, Jesus who accepts the coldness of the world, Jesus who accepts indifference. Everything emerges from our Jesus of love and our Jesus of love has us feel it in our flesh because he holds our flesh in his power of mercy. We therefore become an envelope of mercy. And as we are within a child who is suffering, well, that child receives what we are; and not only does he receive what we are, but he is in me: I am in him, he is in me. And so this gesture of mercy becomes his nourishment. As we are not alone, billions of people receive exactly the same thing that a single child has just received: billions.

Q. So, we’re doing the same that Jesus did, except that he was pure and us, we’re wounded.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: That’s it! That’s why Jesus is lying on that slab of stone and that’s why those bars are there: prison! As long as there is one single child who isn't fully purified, Jesus will remain in that prison. Such is the love of our God! He will dwell in us until the very, very, very last second, until the moment when the last person says his yes: the last one. He will reveal himself as a Being of love. Yes, Lord!

Q. We must not step away from his mercy.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: You cannot step away from God's mercy because Jesus dwells in you.

Q. He tells us: “Always remain in my mercy.”

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes. And do you know how much Jesus loves us?

Q. No, we don’t know, not really.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Imagine a perfect Being, our God! He consents to being in us as I saw him. He could dwell in us in all his glory, couldn’t he? No. He's been like this for a long time: out of love for us, he keeps himself a prisoner in an imperfect flesh, in a flesh that is impure, impure! And he loves us, doesn’t he? And now, he's showing us how to love our neighbour. We say, “love your neighbour unconditionally”; are we ready to lie down on a slab of stone, naked, cold, in the dampness, in the dark? There was no light in there, there was no light! I could see him because God was allowing me to see him with my eyes, which were his eyes. I could see, but there was no light! It was sad! He was drenched in his blood, his flesh was in shreds! He's still in there, still inside us. As long as we haven’t learned to love as God loves us, then you too will lie down on that slab; you too will carry everyone’s mantle, and those mantles are turning into wounds, into pain, and you are covered in them. That’s what love is!

Q. We don’t really know what it means to love, do we?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: No.

Q. Because we were too focused on external things.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Well, that’s because often we say: “Oh! I love my neighbour.” It’s easy to say this but now your neighbour has just stolen from you; your neighbour has just insulted you; your neighbour has just humiliated you; your neighbour speaks against you; your neighbour thinks that you’re ridiculous, that what you’re saying isn't true; your neighbour keeps putting you down – but that’s when you need to love him, that’s when you need to love him more, even more: “I accept these criticisms – they are aimed at me; I accept to wear the mantle of ridicule.” Well, all of these things are wounds; he's whipping you, he's whipping you. You feel that the people of this world are even colder on the inside, don’t you? The people of this world are cold, they’re selfish: love them, love them even if they make you feel this, love them even if they make you feel that you were critical, that you were a liar. And that’s it.  

Q. That’s like when Jesus was being scourged by his soldiers. He loved them so much that they couldn’t see what Jesus was feeling. Even if he loved them that much, did he feel pain?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Always.

Q. We have a long way to go…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: But with the Lord's graces. When I looked at my Lord on that slab of stone, well, what was it that I wanted to do? To try and get in through the bars.

Q. To be with him?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes. And then, as I was trying to get in – I even tried to squeeze my body through the bars – well, I could feel God's presence; it was giving me strength. I wanted to do it so much for him! That love I was feeling for Jesus, well, I can feel it, we can feel it through what we’re becoming: we’re becoming mercy. We are tasting the mercy of our Lord inside ourselves at the same time as the mantle of criticism that covers us: letting you know that we’re critical, that you’re critical. You can feel this upon you – you’re the worst one of all! Satan never gives up, right? He never stops sending demons. And so, you refuse, you refuse. And then, at the same time, what is it that you feel the most? Love. You want to get in through those bars, you just want to touch him, you just want to say: “Jesus, I'm here!” And that’s it.

Now, you give at night or in the morning when you wake up, and you savour those moments! Yes, it’s painful to give all the time. Sometimes, Lord, it just won't stop! But when the Lord has you taste his mercy, then you stop, and then you praise him, you adore him; and don’t rush this: “Ah! Okay! I give you the causes, choices and consequences, I refuse, thank you, …to the foot of the Cross…” No, take the time to be with Jesus. You want to touch him, Jesus, you want to comfort him? Take the time. Of course, sometimes when we’re driving… oh, boy! A car has just passed you: “My God...” Take the time. You will always have enough time. You hit your thumb with a hammer? That’s…

Q. Is Jesus, lying on that slab, inside every one of us? We can see him in everyone? Because that, that changes everything. Now, I see things differently, because to me… I thought that: Jesus is there, he's waiting, he's lying on a slab of stone in there…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: That stone is just an inch or so wider than his shoulders, from one shoulder to the other. The stone is cold, it’s very cold. Oh, it must be about six inches thick, according to what the Lord showed me – it isn't even; I mean that it’s surface isn't all even – it can measure six inches, or seven inches in some places. His body is fully extended and he's on his back. And our Lord is naked, but he's covered with blood and with wounds, with wounds – that’s his flesh. He's covered with wounds. His hair doesn’t look like hair anymore – it’s black, and dry, with a few spots that are wet.

When he looked at me, his eyes… his eyes are the very depth of love. There's so much love that it permeated my entire being. His tears are flowing and he looks at you, and you feel that he doesn’t hold anything against you. You feel only love emerging from him. His feet, I can remember his feet: his feet aren't at a 90 degree angle but at 45 degrees, his feet are… He's fully surrendered, fully surrendered. His arms are extended by his side and he always looks at you. Everything is black around him. It’s a tomb, it’s a prison. There are thick walls, because on the other wall, where I am, there are bars in the form of an oval, a half oval, and it’s very thick, very thick, at least eight inches of stone, of cement, and everything is all black, everything is black, and he stays in there. And when I tried to get in, when I tried to get my upper body in, my hands couldn’t reach him; so, I tried to stretch my arm out as much as I could, just trying to get in as close as possible. If I had touched my Jesus, it would have comforted him. I couldn’t comfort him. I thirsted after one thing: to comfort Jesus. That’s all I felt, because his gaze was upon me and he loved me. That was what I wanted: to draw near to him. And it was impossible, impossible to draw near to Jesus.

That’s our God of mercy. He was in his mercy, in his mercy. And so, he's asking us to love him. How can I, I touch my God? How can we touch our God? He's lying there, suffering, and he loves us, he loves us: every one of us. Does he want comfort from one person although he gave himself up for the whole world? He wants us to love everyone; he wants to feel the love of all his children. Only this could have comforted him: to feel the love of all his children, all those who have insulted God, all those who have mocked God. He has forgiven all of them. And so, he wants, he wants us to accept his mercy. In order for us to comfort our God, we must be mercy, we must feel his mercy upon us. That is the only thing I could have… and I could feel it, I could feel that that was what Jesus wanted.

Because when he sends me to see my sisters and my brothers all over the world, the love I receive is incredible. I would like to kiss everyone, I would like to comfort everyone all the time, all the time, all the time! He's the one who talks to them in their hearts; it’s truly our God. When I come back to myself, when I'm on the plane with Nicole, when he says to us, “My daughters, go home,” even Nicole, both of us, on the plane… ah, it’s as though we were finally coming back down to earth! We feel our flesh… then we feel how tired we are, and at other times, not at all. God is the one who does everything, it’s our God.

Therefore, we must live mercy. We will have to love unconditionally. Yes, we will fall, and then God will have us feel that we have fallen – “Thank you, Lord!” – because it’s when I'm on the ground that I know that I need to love my neighbour in order to be worthy of standing up once again. Otherwise, stay down on the ground, you don’t deserve to get back up. You need to taste your choices, your sins. Taste them! Everybody’s sins are your sins; it is one flesh that committed the ‘no’ to God: one flesh! And well, your flesh, it said no to God, for it contains all flesh. My flesh contains all flesh, your flesh contains all flesh, and therefore, how can we say, “I will get through the Great Purification of the flesh”?

We need, we need to take everything upon ourselves, and, at the same time, the more we take, well, the more we will comfort Jesus and the more we will do this. Because Jesus did in fact turn towards me; he turned his face to me like this and he looked at me. Therefore, a gaze fell upon him; he was able to recognize his gaze, his mercy, his compassion. Do you see? This is what we must live at every moment. If we forget, then God will have us feel: “You have forgotten.” “Forgive me, Lord; I give you the causes, choices and consequences.” Continue, refuse, because that was a spirit – he has just made me feel that a spirit made me forget my God: “Thank you, my God. What grace! I adore you, my God!” We bow down and we have all our brothers and our sisters bow down before our God, who accepts to send impure spirits to the foot of the Cross, death to the foot of the Cross.

Q. We’ve been listening to Jesus for ten years, and we’re still having a lot of difficulty with all of this.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Happy difficulty! Happy difficulty that makes us think that we’re weak and that, yes – causes, choices and consequences – that the spirits do all they can to make things more difficult for us. Thank you, thank you.

Q. But we still need to move forward?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Of course, exactly! They allow us to move forward because it is permitted. What grace it is to suffer in all things. What the Lord tells us is what he wants us to hear. We are truly united, we are united! We can do nothing unless we are united.

Q. United – that’s all brothers and sisters of the whole world?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Ah! Of all religions, of all nations, everywhere!

Q. It’s because, in the beginning, in the teachings, we heard this often, and we were under the impression that it was those who followed the teachings. But ‘united’ is more than that – it’s with everybody all the time. If we want to refuse, we have to think of this.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Ask for that grace.

Q. The grace to be able to refuse?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Ask Mother Mary! Sometimes, Mother Mary has me feel that she's giving me grace, that she's giving us the grace of perseverance: “Continue, my children, continue, my children.” And Mother Mary gives it to us so that we can go on, so that we can go on. That’s why we needed to go through all those steps: to be able to reach a point when, today, we can hear what the Lord wants us to hear in this particular teaching. And tomorrow it will be something else, because today is the present, and tomorrow will become today’s present. There is no time: the past and the present are one and the same. Alleluia!

Q. But imagining the Lord lying down like that inside me, it made me… I think that now I will see Jesus, who is lying there and I can't comfort him; I think that I’ll make more of an effort than before because I wasn’t trying that hard.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: We eat, we talk! There are so few of us! And we don’t amount to much, right? Here we are and then, ah! And God is the Almightiness! And God is the Almightiness! God, the Supreme Being, is inside us, inside us! Realize how important God is to every one of us – it’s important that we realize this as well. And that’s why we need to give ourselves on behalf of others.

But don’t forget – and Jesus warned me and I'm warning you by the power of the Holy Spirit: “You shall experience great suffering; you will feel that you are the most ungrateful, the laziest person of all; you will feel overwhelmed with indifference towards God.” This is the mantle we must accept.

Q. We have to remember his mercy.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes. The Virgin Mary is here with us, everywhere we are. That’s why the daily rosary is important.

Q. For Mary, for Jesus, for the greater Glory of God! If we could only be filled with this feeling all the time! But what we receive… it’s right that it be this way, because we’re accepting to endure this.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: The greatest thing of all is to know the wound that Mother Mary felt; that, that is the greatest thing of all. How many of us have children who are being attacked by Satan in order to make us fall, to hurt us? And he does do this.

Q. During mass this morning, I understood this and I understood many other things as well: the consequences of an action I did nearly forty years ago.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: So, you know what you have to do: accept it. Not only do you accept it, but you take it as your own. You take all those who have done what you have done and you agree to being inside them, to being inside them, and to living it for them. To live that for them is to give your consent so that Jesus can liberate and heal. When he liberates and heals, well, they too feel ready to love their neighbour. Oh, this is very little, so very little, but there is nevertheless healing and liberation! We have to do this! And if it comes back to you: “Thank you, Lord.” If it comes back again, if it eats away at you: “Thank you, Lord.”

Q. It’s been eating away at me for quite a few years.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Well, don’t ask for it to go away too quickly because there are billions of people who need you.

Q. As for me, I thought that it was okay for me to stay away from that critical environment, you know?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: When you get burned, you need to know that the moment you accept, you will feel pain. Don’t go towards pain with your human will. If there's something inside you – you feel that something isn't right – that’s because God, in his mercy, is going through a source of nourishment, a child, to let you know: “Be careful! You are not obliged to go there. Stay in my rest.” This is also part of it – you will learn this – just like before when I was feeling something. The more you surrender, the more this will emerge and the more this will rise up inside you. And then, you no longer fight it by saying: “Does this come from me or does it come from Jesus?” You will learn to no longer fight it but rather to surrender; and then, you will get through it much more easily because you will put more faith in him in any given situation: be it through your work, be it through what you eat, be it in the way you will do your work.

Like this morning: “What am I allowed to do on Sunday, Lord?” I will take my vitamins – so, I get my turmeric and I get the things I need. Ah! I have to go get my bottle from the washroom, and I’ll put everything in it. So, then, I think: ah! I’ll put my bottle away in the washroom. I could feel that it wasn’t the right time: you can take your turmeric and get what you need, but don’t start tidying up your things, you will do that tomorrow, which means: don’t go and put everything away, you will have time for that tomorrow – today, I give this to you, take what I give to you. And this came to me within a fraction of a second. I began to pour something in order to drink it, but the Lord, in a fraction of a second, made me feel: “You don’t need this.” Yikes! I moved pretty fast, I tell you! Well, I don’t move that fast, but I can tell you that I put that cork right back in the bottle! I listen. I learn. It has to be instantaneous.

The Lord guides you in everything, in everything and in everything. This is so pleasant that it doesn’t matter if you don’t get to do something; and then, you go to do something and it goes so well, so well! What does it matter if the cork doesn’t fit in the bottle, it’s not a big deal! What is important is to do what the Lord puts inside you, and everything enters inside you.

Q. This weekend, that’s how it happened: someone came to help me put up the insulation…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: And that, that is a reward for obedience. Before you receive this, you need to accept and to surrender: “I will watch less television. I will do less of such and such…” And then, without realizing it: “But, Lord, it seems like everything just comes to me! Isn't this great?!” But because you were obedient to God, that obedience bears fruit. The fruit comes from the fact that God is showing you that your action led to another action. Therefore, this means that your action was within the action of whom? Of God's children. They received nourishment, and that nourishment was transformed into help, because it went all around the world! Whoops! It hit one person – and then, it went all around the world!

The Lord was telling me… “Lord?” He has just said, “Yes.” I didn’t even have time to form my thought and I knew that he had understood me. And so, when I started and only said “I,” well, I was refusing. Then, it came instantly, so fast that there was no time to say the words, and he answered “yes” to me. “Does this go around to all your children, Lord?” I didn’t need to say this; I knew this because he was nourishing me. He says: “Faster than a ray of light that hits the earth, this nourishment goes around to all the children of the world. The ray of sunshine that falls on the earth is slower than this.” The power of when we say “I refuse,” well, in that instant, the whole world is protected, and the angels, which are spirits, are forced to listen. Therefore, a spirit is so fast that – (she imitates the sound of wind) – this is too slow; this is happening in my little bit of eternity but they, they’re in absolute eternity. That’s why the Lord said “yes.” And so, my thought was too slow for the Lord's answer. So, he nourished me with what I was going to think, but he, he nourished me before that, and he told me that when we refuse, even before I say it, it has already been accomplished. Therefore, imagine how powerful that refusal is. And it happens instantaneously, and we need to know that, instantaneously, the moment you do this, the demons…

Q. We’ve noticed it; sometimes we see it right away… but your angel protects you right away. Me, I've seen proof of this several times. And so has he: with his trailer or when a car cuts you off, when you fall, you hurt yourself badly, you think you’re going to die, but – “Thank you, my God, I didn’t break anything.”

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes, but the moment you say “Ouch!” it’s already…

Q. It’s already too much?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Of course!

Q. The demon is already all over you?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: “Ouch” – who did you put your faith in?

Q. He had enough time to get to me.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: He had enough time to get to you. And then, right away, your angel takes his place, but that “Ouch!” was already… it was…

Q. But how do we live the present moment knowing that the present is a fraction of a second?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Through your presence in all of God's children.

Q. Because it is a fraction – what I just said is already in the past.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: The more you become aware of your presence in mercy for all God's children, the more you will be in the present. Why? Because your presence is in this one and in that one, and in this one and in that one, and in this one and in that one; and not only is it in this and in that one, but they’re in you. Given that they’re in you and that you’re in them, that moment is so powerful that God's mercy comes through right away. The more time goes by, the more indomitable you will become. But since you consented to being susceptible, they will attack your mantles of criticisms, your mantles of pain, your mantles of anger, of disappointments. That’s what they will attack because – “Hey! Look at him! When it comes to lacking faith, he's the worst one of all!” And, as a result, they will attack you. They will leave those who lack faith alone because you’re the worst one of all. This is wonderful, this is amazing.  

Q. The Lord said earlier that they will be put in chains right away, that they won't be able to pass the message on to the other demons. Therefore, the others won't know and they will try to do the same thing.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: At that very millisecond… they are protected.

Q. All the demons will come after me?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes, because…

Q. And then I'm going to say: “I refuse!”

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: And then, since he accepted to wear a mantle, he accepted to take upon himself everything that others were carrying. His mantle, it’s…

Q. … contains all the other mantles.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes, it’s very thick.

Q. Anyway, I don’t understand all of this and it doesn’t matter – but we all have our own mantles, don’t we? You’re in me as well.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: You will understand this when you listen (to the CD).

Q. Yes, because, today, at the beginning, it was explained very well. This is wonderful; it’s much clearer now.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes, more and more. Why? Because the Lord is having us live within what we have accepted: mercy. This is the time of surrender, this is the time of… now, we are children of mercy. We were the children of the Mercy, our Jesus of love; now we’re consenting to enter into this fully, and then, you just do it.  

Q. Because now, we’re accepting to die to mercy…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: You see, during the consecration and after the consecration…

Q. We stay on our knees when he says… he has died, he has risen, he will come again…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes, but most people sing, and then they get up, right? Well, the Lord had me understand: “You, you have not been resurrected, my daughter. I, I saved you from eternal death. I, I have risen, but you, you are still in a flesh that knows the consequence of death.” And that’s why Jesus never stops saying: “I love you, my children. I love you, my children. Soon, my children, you will come to know your resurrection; soon, my children.” Yes.

Q. Yes, we have a casual attitude towards the Lord, and this is constant… Has it begun?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: What did he say at Plantagenet? Do you remember? “Most of you, my children, have practically completed your purification of the flesh,” which has led us to now live the mantle of others. That time was leading up to another time.

Q. Are we going to be able to do this?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes, not only must we be able to do it, but we must live it…

Q. Mercy?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes.

Q. That’s when I remembered and I said to myself that I know that it’s the ‘other one’ who wants to make me believe that Jesus, that God, isn't mercy. So, I refuse, and God is mercy, after all. But that concerns only me; I can't really take any credit for this – I'm not carrying anyone else yet.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: You’re not carrying anyone else yet?

Q. Well, when I say that, I'm saying it for myself. I would think: “I'm the one who’s slow, I'm the one procrastinating, I'm the one who's nonchalant, when, in reality, I wasn’t; but I know that this comes from the ‘other one’ and that I'm still linked to everyone.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: That’s it, exactly.

Q. Sometimes, I have the impression that I'm feeling that indifference for real. I listen and what the Lord is telling us is very nice, but that’s about it. It’s almost like I don’t care at all. And the Lord is telling us that it’s just going to get worse! I go to church and to say the rosary; I feel the need to go, but I ask myself if it’s really helping me. I go but… I try to pray and to tell the Lord that I love him. It’s as though I was all confused…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: God is allowing you to live that.

Q. I have to say “Thank you, Lord”?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Well, of course.

Q. Really? Okay.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Millions and millions are living what you’re living and they’re all indifferent towards our God. You who have given yourself, you have accepted to be among the last: drink from your chalice.

Q. I have to accept being indifferent?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Not only must you accept the mantle of indifference and refuse it – “I refuse this spirit of death, this spirit that keeps me in this indifference. Thank you, Jesus, for sending death to the foot of the Cross” – but you must think of little girls, think of little boys, think of old people, think of all those who are in prison and who are being raped constantly because of boredom. Think of them and: “I refuse, but Lord, don’t spare me!” This should be something you say every day: “Don’t spare me, Lord.”

Q. I should consider it a grace to be able to live this so that I can refuse it, and as a result, help my brothers and my sisters?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: From the beginning, the Lord had us understand what refusing was, but he only had us understand it. Afterwards, in our flesh, we accepted it, but we lived this with our flesh that was bruised; and this was another little step forward. The Lord had us understand the importance of our rights as children of God; he explained them to us. And once more, with our bruised flesh, we understood what we needed to understand to arrive where we are today: “You will not be reproached for what you did not know at the time and which God is enabling you to learn today.” “That’s because I wasn’t ready yet. Well, thank you, Lord, I'm ready now.” He is perfect, he is perfect, our God!

Q. When I say grace before I eat, I say, “Through the welcoming Heart of your beloved Son, come and bless this food, Lord, and bless us, as well.” I add, “In unity with you, Lord Jesus, come and nourish all others. May this food that we are about to eat together with you, Lord, nourish all our brothers and sisters.” Is this okay?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: You must associate your food to spiritual nourishment; then it becomes even more powerful.

Q. Okay, so, spiritually, I'm uniting myself to the Lord so that, through what I eat, he nourishes my brothers and sisters too; so that those who have no food…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Physical nourishment, when we consider…

Q. No, but this will appease hunger; I know very well that it won't fill their stomachs.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Oh, really? The food on the table is filled with sunshine. The food on the table is filled with the freshness of the clouds that contain all rain. The food on the table – isn't it that wind essential to maintaining the balance of the temperature, of the heat and the cold? The temperature is therefore essential to all food. Therefore, a fire of love is ever-present in all food on the table, and it spreads to all the hearts of God's children. Thank you, Lord.