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Through His Instrument, The Girl of My Will in Jesus

2011-10-27 – A Time of Surrender

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: In the name of the Father, of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

This morning, the Lord gave us many graces. He called us: children of mercy. We are all gathered together in God's mercy and we immerse ourselves in God's mercy so that this meal may be blessed by God. We cry out “mercy” for all the times we have forgotten to cry out to God: “Mercy!”

“Mercy, Lord, because we forget you as soon as we get up in the morning. We eat only to fill our stomachs and we forget that our spiritual life needs a blessing to see this food and that it may be multiplied. If the earth lacked food for its children today, isn't this the consequence of what we’ve become? We have thought only of ourselves and we didn’t ask God to bless this food so that it may be multiplied. If we had done this, the world’s children would have always had food. Mercy, Lord, for everything we have done. Bless us, Lord. Never let go of us. Amen.”

All: Amen.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Every time we have eaten selfishly without asking God to bless our meal, well, we were thinking only of ourselves. We wanted to sit down quickly: “Oh, I forgot!” But where were we? We were caught up in our selfishness, we were caught up in our thoughts: “I have to hurry. I have a whole day ahead of me. I have to hurry up, I have an appointment.” And so, we always put ourselves before God; we always put ourselves before our neighbour. Now, we realize that because of our no, we have failed towards all our brothers and our sisters who have always needed a full plate in front of them. What we have done is contribute to the misery of this world.

If, today, children have nothing to eat, that’s because we have forgotten to put God before ourselves. We have been selfish. Yes, we like a nice meal, our eggs that come from our chickens. How many are there who don’t have this? Why don’t they have this? Because we have forgotten to say grace? No, it’s because our actions have not been a source of nourishment for all the world’s children. That’s why there are those who have weighed their options: “I'm going to take this land and I will sell whatever I harvest from it. Those who aren't able to buy anything, well, they will just have to do without.”

We have also nourished big companies. The biggest companies buy, and buy, and buy in order to gain control of the market, and this enables them to raise prices easily. That’s why today they throw milk away to keep prices inflated. Well, we are the ones responsible for this: “Mercy.” Every time we have eaten without asking God to bless the food and our brothers and sisters who are associated to that food, we have thought only of ourselves: “Mercy.”

Let’s go back to the story of the bear. That story is about us, that’s us: the bear and us.

Q. This is the sinner?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes.

Q. But it’s also… we were saying that this was the human will. In fact, the human will is to a certain degree the sinner. But what do we do in the human will?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: The human will has kept us in a state of sin.

Q. Yes, that’s right. But that means that when we will be purified, in seven, eight months…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: No dates, please!

Q. No, no, I was just saying that as an example. This means that we will no longer have certain basic needs, our…?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: You will still need food. You will need to feed yourself properly. The Lord said at Plantagenet: “You have mowed down my creation. You have turned to the pharmacy: consequence of your negligence.” And coffee, let’s not forget that we have been drinking too much coffee. We didn’t want to drink herbal teas. A cup of coffee was way better! And so, it’s as though we had participated in neglecting all of God's creation.

Q. Yes, but coffee is still a natural product…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: From God? Yes, but when it becomes… when we drink only coffee, we become a slave to coffee. It’s the coffee that controls our needs. The Lord said the following: “Look at everything you have: ‘Ah, I need this; ah, I need my coffee.’” It’s something we depend on: our morning coffee. The child of God has free will, and even this compromises his freedom. The bear was hungry, right? What was he ready to eat? Anything. He had developed an excessive need.

Q. Yes, but in real life a bear doesn’t eat mice!

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: No, he wasn’t created to go after mice. He eats anything, even things that aren't good for him. There you have it!

Q. Yesterday, you said to me: “Hey, a bear doesn’t eat mice!”

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Now, the leaves; he picks up a leaf. Yes, bears eat berries, all kinds of berries, but he found that they weren't enough as they are quick to digest, and not long after, he was hungry again.

Q. He’ll eat honey when he can find it.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Humans aren't able to turn to what is good for them – they always need more. The sinner himself has grown up surrounded by what was always above and beyond his needs. This has also kept him in a state of sin.

Q. So, basically, Eve went above and beyond her needs.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: And what did we do?

Q. We followed her; we did the same thing.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: We gave our consent. Now, what does he see after the leaves? What does he turn to?

All: The little mouse.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: And then, he sees that the mouse is agile. Therefore, he becomes proud of what he wants and obtains by being agile.

Q. Oh, really? Why proud?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: But of course! Did he say, “Oh, this mouse is agile”?

All: Yes.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: So the sinner uses all sorts of tricks to get what he wants. He knows how to turn towards many things to keep himself alive. He becomes agile in everything: through his eyesight, in his thoughts, his hearing, through his words. Everything becomes easy to him; he makes everything easy by taking the easier road. And that’s also the reason he becomes cunning, isn't it? And he isn't afraid to take a leap. Cunning leads us to taking leaps that are beyond what is permitted, because don’t forget how he tried to catch the hare – with a swipe of his claws. And he will do anything to get what he wants, absolutely anything.

Q. But as he went on his way, that other one was there – the little pig. He thought it was a pig but he was mistaken.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Hmm! Haven’t we allowed ourselves to be deceived by appearances? The sinner never stops allowing appearances to deceive him. He allows himself to be seduced: she has a nice house, a nice car, a good career, money. Even the poor allow themselves to be deceived; even them.

Q. Yes, but we can tell when something is beautiful! We appreciate nice things! Things that catch the eye!

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: You only appreciate what you see externally, like him.

Q. Yes, that’s true!

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: “I'm not so sure that it was a pig!” And the sinner may also have said, “I'm not so sure that’s right. Bah! That’s not my problem. They can do whatever they want.” So, this is how we influence others as well; we influence them to see what we see, to understand what we want to understand, even when we know that it isn't right. In any given situation involving a person, like singers, for example: what is it that we fall in love with? Well, with his voice, his voice filled with longing. That’s not even his real voice – he studied, he can take you wherever he wants to take you with his voice, right? And so, we think: hey, that’s someone to emulate, someone we want to be like.  

Q. That just when we’re young!

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Today, we only have eyes for what pleases us, for those things we believe are okay. And so, people who are 90 years old only have eyes for their doctors, and not for God or his mercy. Everything has changed over time.

Q. Maybe he's telling us that we have to put our talents to good use. He gave us talents so that we could do good things.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Always for our neighbour, always for our neighbour.

Q. Not for our self-pride.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: We must be pleasing to God, we must love ourselves in order to love our neighbour. And so, talents were given to us by God in order to be returned to God. Jesus said: “Whatever you do for one of these least brothers of mine, you do it for me.” And so, when he meets the humans, he's sure that he can catch them.

Q. Of course, that’s true. That really struck me. Why?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Because he knows them. We’re just like everyone else; we want to do the same as everyone else. We watch television: ‘Oh, come on! Why wouldn’t I watch television?” We sing any kind of song we feel like singing: ‘Oh, come on! What's wrong with that?!’ Right? We were taken in even at Plantagenet. By which song? The one about the mountains, you know…

Q. ‘When the Sun Says Good Day to the Mountains” – really?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: But of course, when we were there, and the Lord reminded us that… It was during the Christian vacation.

Q. When we’re with a crowd, it’s as though we become lost.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: And now we’re scattered east, west, north and south, right? What is it that has spread everywhere? The spirit of the world, the sinner.

Q. I really had a hard time understanding that. We really are miserable, it’s true. It’s true, but at least now we have understood. You mentioned CDs, all kinds of DVDs... When you mentioned these in particular, it was like: whoa! I had them all in nice boxes; I took a big box, put them all in and threw them out.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Why? Because, as Father Marc was saying, “When we look back on the past, well, we nourish ourselves constantly with the past.” And so, now we know that we are sinners, and we have sustained all consequences by living in the past. Whether or not we want it, we have the flesh of all those subjected to sin inside us. What does it mean to be subjected to sin? He told us yesterday. We do what we don’t want to do and we say what we don’t want to say. Therefore, it follows us around all the time, all the time, but: “Mercy!” Thanks to what the Lord revealed to us yesterday – the light – well, it’s true that to us, we sinners of the past and the present, the past becomes a means to cry out “Mercy!”

Q. Because we are the sinner.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yes. And so we know that we have been a source of nourishment for everybody.

Q. Why did he come to… I don’t understand… he came to…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: To wake us up?

Q. Yes and no. Why is he coming for us? Like me, for example, I can move forward but I can also move backwards.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: He didn’t come for you.

Q. Well, what did he do then?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: You gave your yes. Even before you were born, you gave your yes. He was aware of your full measure. He knew what you would consent to when he would talk to you about his mercy.

Q. Maybe I gave my yes without understanding it.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: You gave your yes out of love. If you don’t understand, that’s because your flesh, which is still subjected to sin, is leading you far, far away towards the consequences. But the flesh, it can't suffocate the child of God that you are. That’s why the child that you are said yes. You’re ready to do anything to help your neighbour. And who is your neighbour first and foremost?

Q. Why is this happening in our time? This could have happened in my great-grandfather’s time.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: But he told us yesterday: the preparation began with the no and has led us to being mercy. Jesus accomplished everything, but we, we didn’t. Now, the fulfillment of mercy is happening so that we can become children of the Divine Will once again.

Q. Yesterday, we were coming here. We had gotten ready the day before. I had to pick up a few things and begin loading the truck; then, yesterday morning, we finished loading the truck. We wanted to leave at 9 but we left at 11 o’clock. You think of something else… you have to get another tool…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: We have to accept this.

Q. Yes, but that’s because there are seven days in a week. If you lose one day driving here, another going home, that’s two days less. It’s stressful – and we’re all like this.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Don’t forget, the Lord said: “I am not looking at what you are doing, I am looking at you.” He's looking at us. Seize every single opportunity – seize every opportunity. A wall cracks: “Thank you, Lord.”

The souls in Purgatory! Ah! It’s such a gift to know that they need those moments. You’re suffering but you give up your suffering, you offer it. And if you happen to think of all those who have taken the Name of Jesus in vain, well, in that moment, tell yourself that your twinge of impatience didn’t nourish those people, and therefore: “Mercy.” Everything, everything, everything must be seized as an opportunity, absolutely everything.

Q. I remember that yesterday the Lord spoke about the souls in Purgatory. He said that they cry when they see what they should have been, and they aren't as the Lord wanted them to be, and they cry over this…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Yesterday, Louise and I were underneath the Refuge of Jesus, between the ground and the floor of the refuge. And at a certain point, just in the corner over there, the ground rises a little because there are rocks, and there's just barely enough room for a person’s head to pass. And we had to crawl over to that area, lying on our backs, because we had to work underneath the Refuge. And so, we had pink insulation in our hair, our heads were on the ground and we couldn’t turn our heads even if we wanted to; but everything was being done with such joy because we were thinking of the souls in Purgatory. We were so united! It was dark, we couldn’t move, nothing, but we did it anyway. It didn’t matter! At one point, we decided to leave and we began to crawl backwards while lying on our backs. But then, I had to go back in because I had to put in some red duct tape, and I crawled back in. So, I tried to get through and then, suddenly, there was so little room that my head went through but the rest of me didn’t. So then, I tried to crawl back out because I had to get out and try to get back in somewhere else. Whoops! I felt an indentation in the ground, and whoops! I was able to crawl all the way in. I had to get back to that spot, in that little opening.

I went there with so much love, with so much joy! The minutes didn’t count; time no longer existed – it didn’t count. I have to go, I will go, but I’ll go without hurrying, and I wasn’t even thinking about hurrying, not at all! That was because my heart, love, was nourishing my movements – okay, let’s do this. We were filled with joy. I managed to get in there and Louise crawled in lying on her side as well. She handed me the tape, just under the wooden floorboards; she reached in with only her hand so that I could get the red duct tape: and then, there was a smell of flowers! There was a smell of flowers for a whole minute; it just went on. At a certain point I thought that maybe she was wearing perfume. You can put on cream, but you wouldn’t be able to smell cream from that distance, and I would have smelled it long before, when we were both in there for hours. All of a sudden, for a minute or so: a heavenly smell.

Q. Did she smell it too?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: No. I asked her if she could smell it but she couldn’t smell it. And so, Heaven was telling me: “Yes, this is how you must work.” When we are filled with that love, with that joy, and we don’t keep track of time: we don’t calculate. We have things to do? Yes, I’ll do them. The refuge – I can't be in more than one place at a time. That refuge, it’s for my neighbour. Who's going to live there? I don’t know, but I'm doing it for them while always giving everything to the souls in Purgatory. And so, we do what needs to be done. And Louise too: of what use is any of this to her if it weren't for the sole purpose of offering herself on behalf of her neighbour? We did this for our neighbour, not for me, but for our neighbour. And so, that smell, that smell from Heaven, it was as though we had felt our interior, our interior filled with love. This is how we must see things; and “mercy” when we realize that something is about to happen. Yes, there are people who – yesterday, these thoughts kept coming to us – all those who work in the mines…

Q. The miners?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: The miners! Yesterday, we were thinking of the miners who work in the dark, but in what conditions! At times, they weren't… they were doing it for the money, and I, I didn’t nourish them. They really worked hard. How many times did I fail to nourish those people because of what I said? They were the ones who needed love so that they could live that experience in the present moment, and do so with love – not for the money but because it was what they had to do: go and dig for coal so they could heat their homes. They were supposed to do it with love, but because of me, because of my lack of love, the useless words I uttered in my life, because of the things I did – like looking at myself in the mirror a little too long, putting on make-up, colouring my hair – because of pride, right? I did those things because of my job. I had to colour my hair so that we could sell the products in the hair salon. You become the product. But that’s what sin is! I didn’t do that out of love for my neighbour or out of love for God – I did it for my job. And so, I failed my neighbour.

And so, they lacked the love they needed to be able to do their work, and if they had done their work with love – because I would have given them love by being what I was yesterday, when I smelled the flowers – if I had been like that, they would have received as well. And what would those people have done? They too would have been a source of nourishment for other people, and they would have received what I would have given them, and what other would have received, and so on and so on. Can you see how we have failed our neighbour? Why does Jesus call us the children of mercy? And we need to experience this, to understand this. These are revelations, these are the light. “Let me open your eyes to the light.” We can't do this but God can.

Q. But when we will truly understand everything – because we don’t understand yet, we’re just beginning to – then we’re going to cry, we’re really going to cry, aren't we?

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: No. When I was working yesterday, was I crying? I was laughing with Louise. We were laughing together. It felt good to be together. And a few times, we even sang a little tune while we were under there.

Q. Yesterday, it wasn’t as bad; it was worse the day before that when we were…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Ah! It was the same thing. We were singing the same tune. There was a snail crawling on my head; my hair was black; Louise had even wrapped a scarf around her head to protect her hair. Yes, water was dripping on us, mud was dripping on us, all the little things on the floor, all the little grains of dirt… everything that had accumulated in the dampness under the wooden floor over the course of two years… it was all under there, falling on us! But we were filled with joy! We were filled with joy!

We thought of our little Kevin; Kevin is now in Purgatory because he hanged himself. We thought of him: this if for you. Then we thought of all those who are in Purgatory, and also of all those who committed suicide and who found themselves in Purgatory. And so, imagine… we sang a song. Oh, yes! We were cutting away the polyethylene sheeting and whoops! A shower on our faces! My hand… I said: “My watch will be ruined.” We could feel water dripping up our arms; we were completely soaked in mud. No, that wasn’t what was important to us – it was that joy. Even for André it was the same thing. He, he was keeping an eye on us in case something went wrong. We did it with joy. You see, the Lord showed us the souls in Purgatory one day, and the day after that, the miners. What a reward! We felt our interior, our interior: mercy, to be mercy. It’s a joy to be like this.

Q. In any case, I still have trouble understanding that. To be mercy, okay, but when we realize that because of us, because I wasn’t merciful, for example, there are people dying of hunger, in accidents… then…

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: Cry over the person who didn’t cry out “Mercy” – which is who you were – be joyful for the person who is now crying out “Mercy.” When Jesus carried the cross, the women were moaning and crying. “Do not weep for the wood that is green, but weep for yourselves and for your children. I am the Mercy.” And so, you see, the Lord was telling us to stop weeping because he was the Mercy. Therefore, we will not weep. No, we didn’t help our brothers and our sisters, and we even helped to maintain them in a state of sin because we maintained ourselves in a state of sin.

Q. But the women, they were crying because they loved Jesus and they could see that he was suffering. That’s why they were crying.

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: And that’s why she doesn’t have to cry: because she will see that she's a sinner and that she has neglected her brothers and her sisters, but now, she has learned to cry out “Mercy.” But before that, she had a reason to cry – because you were blind and you were deaf. Now, the Lord is letting you see the light, he's having you understand what you had never understood before: that you are a child of the Light. Now, we are children of mercy. This is what we are living. Amen. We give you thanks, Lord.

Grace: We give you thanks, Lord, for all the blessings you grant to us, for all these good meals. We thank you for all the graces in spite of our faults. Thank you, Lord.