Gathering of Love With God's Action in Plantagenet, Ontario,
Through his instrument, the Girl of My Will in Jesus 

2015-03-13  – Evening

The Day when I Will Have to Take a Look at Myself Is Before Me

♪♪   Hymn

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: The Lord is saying: “I will tell you a story. On a beautiful summer day, a wind could be heard blowing in the distance. Those who felt the heat at the heart of that wind asked one another, ‘Can you hear that wind?’ Another asked, ‘You, can you hear it?’ ‘No.’ Another asked, ‘No, are you certain you are hearing the wind?’ And the wind blew, and blew, and blew closer and closer to them. Those who felt the heat at the heart of that wind said, ‘We can hear the wind. The wind comes from far away; the wind is making itself heard; the wind is making itself felt: look at what you have become.’ Another person says, ‘Look at what you yourself have become as well.’ Others replied, ‘Let us look at what we have become.’ They all looked at themselves and all could see that there had been a transformation.

“The wind blew so strongly that it blew about everything around them. What had been around them was joy; what had been around them was peace; what had been around them was love. They could see the joy, they could see the peace, they could see the love because these were on their faces. The wind had blown upon them things they had forgotten; the wind had lifted up what had fallen; the wind had made their lives swirl all around them: a life that did not appear to be a life. The Holy Spirit was showing them that they were life. Everything around them was manifesting itself: they were experiencing joy, peace was being felt, love was being given. Nothing could stop what had begun. What had been forgotten, what had surrounded them and had no longer been important to them, was being reclaimed by the children who were present.

“Each of them was becoming aware that this depended on them. Joy was to be picked up in their hands like a tiny little bird so that it could return to its nest. Peace was to be welcomed, the peace that had been rejected by them. Love was to be eaten, eaten at every moment like a good meal, that meal that nourishes life. The wind had blown upon them; it had made these children enter the cycle of life. Everything around them and in them was alive. The Holy Spirit was God, is God and will always be God. The Holy Spirit is the joy of the soul, is the peace of the spirit, is the nourishment of love. The Holy Spirit is eternal.

“My little children of love, you have understood that only the Holy Spirit can enable you to be reborn to your lives. Take a look at your life, my children, it is entirely light. Do not shut your eyes, leave them open, they reveal who you are to you. It is when your eyes are open that you can perceive that you have cast your joy aside. The Holy Spirit enables you to open your eyes so that you can take a look at yourselves. When you look at yourselves, you learn to recognize that you are children of God, loved by God.

“Joy does not come from you, it is given to you by God. Your joy is internal, it nourishes itself of itself. It does not require your human will, it comes from God and God takes care of it. It is up to you to take care of it, it is up to you to love who you are. When you love who you are, you love the joy that inhabits you. You do not become sad when you see that you make mistakes, for joy is taking care of you. When you offend God, it leads you to confession, and joy makes itself felt, like a good ice cream cone enjoyed on a hot day. You see, my children, the joy from Heaven is nourishing. The joy you know and which comes from earthly possessions, that joy cannot give you nourishment; it makes itself felt and it disappears as soon as you can no longer see it.  

“My children, live in God's joy by understanding that you are the ones who can accept this joy. The Holy Spirit is in your lives. If you can hear a presence in the distance, it is as though your soul were creating an echo within you; it is sending you a reminder regarding who you are. You are created children, children made for love, children made to know happiness on earth, children who accept to carry out the Will of God, even if this is complicated due to the child’s weakness. Yes, your soul is enabling you to feel the presence of the Holy Spirit.

“But when your joy is ignored, when your peace is not perceived within you, when your love towards yourselves is not a source of nourishment, it is you, my children, who are not doing as you should. Your thoughts are against you, your sight is against you, your hearing is against you, your words are against you, as are your actions and your feelings. And who turned these against you? Is it you perhaps, my children? Oh, my little ones, you are the sole masters of your life on earth. It is up to you to say no to temptation.

“The child who does not know himself, my children, is very complicated because he is unaware of what he has accepted through his life, in his life. My words are not complicated; it is you who are so. You have lost the beauty of your intelligence. You are so intelligent, my children! Were you not told that you are in God's likeness? Can you remember who told you this? You are right, it was God. Only God can say such words to you. You were created in God's likeness, you are God's children, you are superior to everything that was created for you. Therefore, my children, allow me to instruct you. I want to instruct the child of God so that he may return to being what he is, for he was, is and always will be the image of God's beauty, created in God's image.

“You are my little children and the Holy Spirit enables you to understand this. Slowly, my children, slowly, he draws near; slowly, my children, he wants to enable you to live your awakening of the conscience: your light. To be able to live your light, my children, it is necessary that you accept. Do you accept, my children, to enter the light? Do you accept, my children, to recognize who you are? My children, this will certainly not be easy. You will not have the time to get your knitting needles out or to play chess. In your life will be your life. You will see who you are by looking at those who are around you. Allow the Holy Spirit to show you. In order to be able to allow the Holy Spirit to show you, my children, ask your soul for the graces it receives from Heaven.

“Yes, my children, you have received my Body, you have received my Blood, and your soul has received so much love. Your flesh is nourished, is nourished by this perfect nourishment. My Body and my Blood are perfect. My Body and my Blood are the perfect nourishment and my Soul is in love with your soul. It adorns your soul with its most beautiful finery. O, my children, if you could only see your soul when it is all beautiful: it is radiant. Your flesh, such as it is, would not be able to endure such effervescence, for within it there are praises, my children, there are acts of thanksgiving, there are feelings of infinite joy, peace, love and tenderness. There is so much life within your soul, my children, for eternal life is within your soul. Oh, how beautiful is your soul! How it would love for your flesh to take part in its joy! O, little children of love, all is on its way. God is preparing you. I love you, my children of love. Love your God.”

The Girl of My Will in Jesus in the Holy Spirit: God is speaking to us about love; God is speaking to us about joy and peace. It is necessary to live peace and joy in order to taste love. It is possible to taste love! Love has flavour, the flavour of Heaven; love is tender like a tiny child who has just been born and has committed no impure act; love is gentle, even gentler than the morning breeze.

Love emits sounds. Imagine the most beautiful sounds on earth. God created flowers; flowers are beautiful, aren’t they? When we look at a flower, we hear love. The red says you belong to me; the white: how beautiful you are; the yellow: you are as bright as the sun; the green says enter, enter into hope. You see, flowers emit sounds of love because it is love that is speaking. Love has us move forward: we take a step, and even if it’s difficult we take a step because love bears us on its wings. Love opens our eyes: it reveals the invisible to us, it reveals the presence of God to us, it reveals that God is before love.

God is love and it is he who turns us into love. We are love. We must learn to discover who we are. We have forgotten that we were created more beautiful than everything that surrounds us. We look at flowers and we say, “Ah! How beautiful!” And we look at ourselves but we don’t find ourselves beautiful. We say to ourselves, “Oh! I'm too tall, I'm too short, I'm too thin, I'm too fat, I don’t have enough hair.” And yet, we were created more beautiful than any vegetation. We must see ourselves as we truly are. Yes, the horse is fast and strong; yes, the bull is very powerful; yes, the donkey is temperamental; the rooster is obstinate and proud, the lamb gentle and loyal, the fish very agile, the elephant heavy, the crocodile fearless, the bird very lively – of course, it’s there one minute and gone the next. Where has he gone?

And we, we consider ourselves, we consider ourselves inferior to them. Him, it's all right for him to be big but not us! We compare ourselves to ourselves. We look at someone who, like us, was created: “Ah, compared to her, I'm way too fat!” Well, I'm comparing myself to someone who was created as I was created. “He's fast but I'm not.” There I am, comparing myself to myself because the person I'm seeing in front of me is what I am. He nourishes me and I nourish him. My acts of life nourish me and I cannot keep my acts of life to myself; I give them because I am love. Can love keep itself for itself? Have you ever seen the sun keep itself for itself? Ask the wind if it keeps itself for itself; ask the breeze if it keeps itself for itself.

Everything God has created around us – the planets, the stars, all the celestial bodies – are love. Even the mosquitos nourish and are nourished: this is love! And we, what do we do? We are not loving towards ourselves when we look at another and find that he's better than we are, or that we’re better than him. I'm lacking love for myself, I'm not nourishing myself with what I am; therefore, I'm not nourishing myself lovingly with my acts of life, but rather, I'm poisoning myself. My acts of life poison my thoughts, my gazes, my hearing, my words, my actions and my feelings: I eat away at myself! What does my life become? My life becomes what I accept to be: poison. I poison my very existence. The life I am referring to is life on earth.

Can I poison my eternal life? No. My eternal life comes to me through God, but I am the one who fashions my life on earth. What is the difference between eternal life and life on earth? Eternal life is in my soul; it was given to me by God, it is made up of only love. It was God who put eternal life within me, and it is in and through eternal life that God said, “Go, and do as you are called to do on earth. Show me that you are my child.” When I'm on earth and I'm not happy with myself, when the people around me don’t please me, I'm turning my life on earth into hell, as I'm not living my eternal life; I'm living my life apart from what I am.

Do you remember Mother Mary? Oh, for those who weren’t there: Mother Mary told us a story about two frogs on the shores of a lake and the two frogs were together. The first, the one on the right, had turned into an echo. No matter what it said, everything came back to it like a void. The one on the right or the one on the left… well, depending on where you’re sitting, which one is on the right and which on the left? I'm in front of you, you’re in front of me. Which person is right? Are you able to say so? What the Lord is enabling us to understand is that if your ideas and my ideas aren’t in harmony, they’re against my ideas and your ideas are against mine. Only the Holy Spirit can guide us. Why? Because the frog that was next to the one who had an echo ended up in the lake. Therefore, this means that the frog that was supposed to live in harmony with itself, separated from itself.

We received an eternal life so that our eternal life could nourish our soul. When we are not in harmony with our soul, it’s as though there were two people: the child of God and the child. The tiny child of God who knows who he is, the child who thinks he knows who he is, looks at his life and he lives life. His life belongs to him; he does with it as he pleases; he ignores his soul, which is what he wanted. He chooses to live his life as he wishes to live his life, and as he wishes to live his life as he pleases, he doesn’t realize that he's making himself suffer. And the more he makes himself suffer, the more he believes his life is a living hell. He therefore thinks he can work to turn it into paradise on earth.

How can he do this? By accusing others to absolve himself of his guilt; by crushing others in order to free himself; by not preoccupying himself with others to show that he is happy with himself; by no longer wanting the lives of others to be part of his life. “They have their own lives, I have mine. They do as they please, I do as I please. They work, I work. They think a certain way, I think differently. They don’t agree with what I say, I agree with what I say. If they don’t want to listen to me, I will listen to myself for they’re the ones who want to live their own lives and they’re not part of my life. They wage war, I don’t wage war. They kill children, I don’t kill children. They don’t give charity, I give charity while thinking that I'm the only one on earth who gives generously.” Why all this? Because I have separated. I have separated myself. I can look at others without involving them in my life. I am able to realize that others are made like this and that I'm not made like them. Why? Because they’re not me, and I'm not them: lies. This comes from Satan, this comes from the Divider, this comes from the Deceiver. He took my life and he used it. He took life, which means our life, the one we have on earth.

If we loved our life on earth as God wants us to live it, we would love God with all our soul, all our strength, all our mind, all our heart. We would seek our strength from among all God's children to make up one strength; we would share one spirit, the same spirit before God; we would share one soul, a soul in harmony with all other souls, a soul that shines like one soul, a soul that encounters another soul to form but one soul. Are we able to separate purity? Are we able to separate beauty? Are we able to separate harmony? Can you see our souls? Our souls together form one beauty, one purity. We are together and we love. When we have one heart and it beats only for love, and only then, only then are we able to say, “God of love, I love you with all my soul, with all my mind, with all my heart and with all my strength, for your created ones form but one all: love, only love!” But we are separated. I have separated myself, you have separated yourselves.

I attended holy mass tonight, just as you attended holy mass tonight. When we were about to sing “Holy, holy, holy…,” ah, I begged: “Please, my God, my God, I love you. I beg you, my soul, to please allow me to live a tiny portion of what you’re going to live. You, you can see Jesus. I beg you, please let my flesh take part in this.” And then, at the consecration, the more the priest (Abbé Claude) said the words of Christ, the more I could feel that I was in the presence of something very important that was about to happen. I wasn’t able to realize this with all my flesh, but I could feel something that was inside me, something was happening without my will being able to interject. And then, when the priest said those words, Jesus was there, in front of me. It was as though my body became transparent; it was as though my body could see what I couldn’t explain. My soul, my soul could see: my body enabled me to understand this by the grace it was receiving from the soul, from my soul. I was so joyful, such deep joy, and then I understood. Thank you, my soul. My body had participated.

Do you know how I knew? There were tears. The tears were flowing, flowing, flowing! My flesh was receiving graces from my soul so that it could participate, and the Holy Spirit had me understand that my flesh did not have the purity of my soul. I had gone to confession before coming to mass; I had met Father Paradis, and I remained in love, because you were there and it was so joyful seeing you! My soul, it was pure, it was strong, and so it was giving me the graces it had received from God; but my flesh, my flesh was aware of things it shouldn’t have come to know.

My flesh has known sadness; it has known worry; it has known anguish, anxiety. You know, when you’re stressed out, well it’s your flesh that feels this. So, I knew: “Oh, my flesh, you are not perfect. That’s why you’re crying.” But it was a suffering filled with joy! This was a suffering that it wanted to live because it was the Holy Spirit who had me say this to my soul. My spirit was in God, and therefore, God took my spirit and he gave grace to my spirit so that it could ask the soul for the graces to participate in the holy Sacrifice of love.

My flesh wouldn’t be capable of doing this on its own. Why wouldn’t it be capable of doing this? It contains too many ghosts. It is a stranger in the land to which it was sent. So many years spent living a life on earth while not knowing that it was inhabited by eternal life. At communion, we receive the Eternal One, one single God: God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit. Can my life on earth enter my eternal life in order to give thanks to God for this moment of love? I have separated my life. My past, my present and my future are separated one from the other: remembering my past makes me suffer, carrying out my present makes me uncertain, looking towards my future confuses me, whereas I should be living solely on joy, peace and love. We were created for peace, joy and love. We have separated ourselves from ourselves, and so I cannot feel joyful, be at peace and in love continuously, in the presence of all God's created children.

The things that are going on in Iraq and in other countries, all that violence… how does it affect me? Do I continually keep my peace, my joy and my love? Can you see that we have separated ourselves from ourselves? If I were with who I am – the child of God – I would understand that those children, who have committed those acts against those I cry for, are like me. They have separated from themselves; they are unaware that they were created for love, joy and peace on earth. I'm too weak due to my separation. I'm not able to seek the refuge of love, for when I hear about what is happening over there, I don’t seek the refuge of love – I become sad, I don’t understand. I want to love those who are being tortured and killed, and I should love those who torture and kill since I told God “I love you,” which therefore means that I am saying to God, “I also love all your created ones.” This is what we will have to discover: what we have hidden from ourselves, what we have consented to ignoring. 

We want to undergo the awakening of the conscience, don’t we? With what will we live this? With the child of God or with our separated halves? We must not separate ourselves; we need the entire being that we are: we are a child of God along with the children of God. I have separated myself because I don’t love myself enough. The day when I love myself just as I am before my God, who created me, I will love my neighbour just as he is because I will see him through what I am, as I am. This is what God wants us to live.

We want to live the purification of the flesh, which is our purification, don’t we? There has been only one purification of the flesh and Jesus accomplished it. Is he going to be crucified again for us? He told his Father, “All is accomplished.” So, what is left to accomplish? Well, the fact is that we haven’t entered into the fulfillment: we have separated ourselves. God took the child we are internally, and he purified that child. He said, “All is accomplished.” The good thief said, “When you shall be in paradise, remember me.” And what did Jesus say? “On this very day, you shall be with me in paradise.” God isn't a liar. God has accomplished the Will, his Will.

We have all said, “Remember me,” but we didn’t do what God has asked us to do. We doubted ourselves. We are children of God who are repentant; we are forgiven, but we haven’t forgiven ourselves. We are still the bad thief. He made himself suffer, he refused to turn to mercy, he refused to look at himself, he refused himself love, he offended his God of love. He refused to believe he had been forgiven, he refused to believe that he deserved to love himself, he shut his eyes to who he was. He had who he was on the other side of Jesus: the good thief. They were on the cross for the same reason: they had committed what was evil in their neighbour’s eyes. Both had been judged by their neighbour, both had been condemned by their neighbour to die on the cross.

The good thief forgave himself. He looked at himself, he accepted that Jesus look at him, and Jesus showed him that he was the beloved child of God the Father. Why? Because the good thief believed that he was the Son of God, the Messiah, the Saviour, the Light of the world. It was the good thief who understood and the good thief loved himself: “I deserve to die on the cross, but not you! And yet, you accept who I am? Can you take me with you?” And Jesus said yes. “You shall be with me on this very day…” And all was accomplished.

But, at the same time, we were separating ourselves; we were the bad thief: I will judge myself, I will not love myself, I will judge my neighbour, I will do evil yet again and my neighbour will judge me; he will condemn me and I will suffer because of that condemnation. I will not see you as the One who took everything upon himself and accomplished everything. Doubts will eat away at me. I will make myself suffer, I will console myself and I will make myself suffer yet again. I will have doubts regarding paradise, I will distance myself from your graces, I will refuse your mercy because I will not love myself. I will not believe in myself, I will live with my bitterness. My pride will be my coffin, for all the days of my life, I will forget that you have purified me, for I have not understood that I need your graces at every instant of my life.

Yes, your graces are within me and my soul does not lack graces for me, for my flesh. I will bring on my own suffering due to my ignorance, which I will nourish with my thoughts that offend God, that offend me and that offend my neighbour; with my gaze that shuts itself off to the being that I am and that refuses to see that you have purified me and that my neighbour has been purified. I will shut my ears so as to listen only to myself. I will control my words; I will not consider them worthy of being addressed to God, but I will use them against myself because I don’t feel merciful towards myself and towards my neighbour. My actions, I will not understand them.

Yes, I will turn to God to ask for forgiveness, but I will betray myself: I will not have faith in what I am doing. I will lack love for myself, that feeling that I am supposed to nourish with the graces of the purification. Yes, I will accuse God of placing me in temptation. Yes, I will use the sword against the sword; I will render blow for blow; I will strike out at God's graces and because I will strike out at God's graces, they will be on my side, and will not turn against me. God's graces will have me live my consequences. Isn't this the sword turning against me? But God loves me. These consequences will be enveloped in love, these consequences will teach me that I am not lost: I am saved, Jesus has saved me. God the Father has sent me the Saviour of the world. Yes, I will understand that we are all saved and that I must live the graces of the purification, and this will require efforts. 

Despite the storms, I will move forward; despite the earthquakes, I will move forward; despite the fires, I will move forward; despite the epidemics, I will move forward; despite the floods, I will move forward; despite the hatred, I will move forward; despite the darkness, I will move forward, for I am saved. Jesus has purified everything. There are no more sins that can affect my life because Jesus has sent all sins unto death. I am living the graces of the purification one step at a time. Confession will love me, for I will offend yet again due to the ghosts I have within me.

Yes, I will listen to fear yet again, the fear that listens to Satan. It follows the shadow of sin around; it doesn’t want me to turn towards the purification of the flesh. When we, the children of God, offend our flesh, we’re making our soul suffer, we’re offending our soul. What are we doing when we offend our soul? We keep falling into what Jesus has purified. Jesus has purified. He said to the good thief, “On this very day, you shall be with me in paradise.” Jesus is not a deceiver; he didn’t deceive us. We are the good thief; we are not the bad thief. We never, never, never stop offending God; we never stop making our soul suffer. We are a bad nourishment for our brothers and sisters of the whole world.

Yes, we must remain humble and go to confession. We need the sacraments instituted by our God of love. How can we benefit from the graces of purification if we don’t turn to the sacraments? We are still crucified but our cross has not been purified – it is a reflection of our image. It is a cross made up of our mocking. What did the bad thief say to Jesus? “Save yourself!” Well, that’s what we tell ourselves when we don’t turn to the sacraments. We’re telling ourselves to save ourselves! How? By not turning to the sacraments, but rather by comforting ourselves, by talking about others, by accusing others. Those other people are all God's children on earth.

Who are we to judge those who kill people in Iraq? We are the bad thief. Who are we when we judge the mother who has an abortion? We are the bad thief. What have we done with our thoughts that judge our neighbour? A simple thought like, “Hey! If she thinks she's going to eat when she wouldn’t even help peel the potatoes,” a thought as simple as this is a thought that is not loving. If this thought isn't loving, can it be love for us? And yet, we wanted to flatter ourselves, we wanted to prove that we were right: “Hey! I'm the one who prepared this meal! She just sits down and she didn’t do a thing!” This is exactly what we do. We are against ourselves; my thoughts poison me.

Am I alone on earth? Didn’t God create all of God's children? Therefore, I'm offending my Father in Heaven who created me. He's the one who gave me the ability to think, and I use it against myself to accuse his children. She who comes to eat at my table even though she didn’t help with the preparations, she's a child of God; I'm judging her, and therefore, I'm judging what God does within that child. It’s up to him to give her the graces to come and help me! And as she doesn’t come to help me, then I judge what God is doing with her. This is what we do. And who is the author of this? Satan. Why? Because we don’t refuse the tempter. We allow this temptation to enter us through our will, which has presented itself. The eternal life within us, we forgot all about it.

It’s life on earth that matters, right? I'm the one who’s tired after making that big meal, and I judge. My life on earth, I use it to judge and to accept the lies of the tempter: “Come on! Why worry about her? Why deprive yourself of this thought? She's the one who didn’t peel the potatoes and you’re the one who did all the work. You’re right to defend yourself.” And this is how we fall victim to his traps.

We need to realize all of this. We need to accept to take a look at our lives. We’re living a time of light and this time was given to us by God. The Holy Spirit, almighty God, reveals to us what we have within us: we carry what is against eternal life within us. Jesus, Jesus has saved us. Jesus is our Saviour. Let’s be the good thief and not the bad thief. It’s our eternal life that is at stake. We’re not on earth just for the amount of time granted to us by God to then disappear. We will go on after this time on earth. We will present ourselves with the acts of life we have carried out during our life, past and present. We must look upon this in a loving manner. This is why we must look upon our lives today with love – this is very important.

Sin… oh, when we go to confession and we go to tell God, “My God, forgive, forgive me because I have judged my neighbour. You sent me your Son and your Son has purified my sin. His Blood flowed over me and the child that I am, the tiny child has accepted your mercy. But I, I who am the sinner, I am supposed to see myself as being loved by you, but I didn’t do this. I didn’t love myself and I didn’t love my neighbour, and in that moment, I didn’t love you, for I doubted your love; I did this unknowingly. Because of the words, because of the words you put in your priests, in your deacons, in your consecrated ones, in your children on earth, I am instructed, I am evangelized, but I don’t believe, I have not believed. And today, I come to ask forgiveness on my knees. Forgive me, Father, I have offended you, I have offended myself and I have offended my neighbour. Be good to me; look at me and give me graces so that I can love myself.”

Oh, my brothers and sisters, confession is love, it’s to beg God for love, it’s to beg God to give us graces so we can live the graces of the purification. This is what confession is. It’s beautiful, isn't it? It’s so beautiful! We need to see ourselves as we truly are. Let’s not hide who we are from ourselves! Let’s stop being the bad thief, let’s stop mocking who we are! For when I look at my neighbour, I'm looking at myself; when I look at myself, I see my neighbour. Thank you, my God, for so many graces. It feels so good, Lord, to hear you. Amen. Alleluia, Lord! Thank you, Lord.

It’s 10:30, just before we go to bed….

Two years ago, I was sitting in front of a screen, in front of the television. It was in the afternoon. My brother was at my house and he was doing repairs in my bedroom because it was cold in there. Well, I didn’t have any hair on my head: I was so bald, really bald! And I was bald everywhere else: like an earthworm. So you can understand why my brother wanted to make my bedroom a little warmer. And my sister Pierrette was with me – I can’t see Pierrette… Pierrette, do you mind? (Pierrette: Yes.) Pierrette, Pierrette, remember that you said it was okay… My father used to call her – do you mind, Pierrette? He used to call her the magpie. You couldn’t get anything past Pierrette, oh no. She's very frank, and she talks quite a bit when something doesn’t please her! Now, we don’t call her a magpie anymore because she doesn’t talk very much now; she gives everything to the Lord, or almost.

Okay, so let’s go back to two years ago. We were sitting in front of the TV – I don’t have television, I have internet – I hooked up my internet to my television. It’s H… what’s it called? HTMI, thank you. And we were watching the Vatican channel. And this is thanks to Monique, I think, who gave me the address, or I'm not sure if I found it myself. So, this happened two years ago, almost day for day. They were announcing that we had a new pope. So, we didn’t know who the pope would be. We were both watching this and my brother was in my bedroom. He wasn’t watching but he was listening. And, we couldn’t see the pope yet; we could only see the smoke, and the smoke was black. He hadn’t yet appeared on the balcony – well, not a balcony… he opens a door, a window and there's a sort of railing.  

At a certain point, I begin to repeat what the Lord said inside of me: he was describing the pope. He was talking about how he looked physically, and he was describing him as a good pope filled with the Holy Spirit, loyal to his God, in love with the Virgin Mary. He said this after describing him physically. He was saying that he was tall, impressive, and he was describing everything about him. It was beautiful! How long did this last? Just long enough for him to say these things! I don’t really know. It was only after this that we saw the white smoke; the smoke became white only after he had finished talking. Isn't that right, Pierrette? (Pierrette: Yes.) She and I were so excited. After having heard all that, there was the pope in front of us just like God had described him. Hey! It was wonderful!

How can we doubt that our pope loves God? And a few… I think it was a week or two after this, that he said something: “He will shake up the world.” Well, he's really shaking up the world! Believers or non-believers, everybody loves him! Thank you, my God. And during the blessing, my brother came out of my room. The three of us got down on our knees and we received the blessing of our new pope. And that was two years ago today, and I have hair on my head! Thank you, thank you, Lord, thank you for these moments of love.

So, if there are people who believe that our pope wasn’t chosen by Heaven, well, love them. Do you think that our pope doesn’t love them? Yes, he loves them. So, let’s be behind our pope like we were behind Benedict XVI and John Paul II. God said that he would have to leave us, but you know, this was painful for us. There were some who thought that he would be forced to leave… but they meant no harm because no one wanted him to go. Those of you who would have liked him to stay with us a little longer, please raise your hands. Yes, but that, that’s our will, right? Of course. He's much better off in Heaven than here with us! Hey! We were lucky to have him with us on earth, and now he's in Heaven, and I know this because I was allowed to see him.

When we were in Western Canada, at the foot of the mountains… well, not at the foot but in the middle of the Rockies… when the pope died, we had been warned that something would happen that would cause us to feel a loss, but we didn’t know that it would be the pope’s death. Well, that was the day he died. On another day, at a certain point during mass, it was as though both my knees gave way and I fell to my knees. We were in a Church, and there were so many people! Do you remember, Nicole? There were so many people waiting outside who wanted to come in because there was a lot of music during that mass. The pews were really close together; and so, you see, when I found myself on my knees, I wondered how I was able to fall on my knees without hurting myself because the pews were so close together. And when I found myself with both knees on the floor, I saw – my eyes were closed, they weren’t open – I saw Pope John Paul II dressed in white. Where do you think he was? He was in Heaven. Thank you, my God.

These are little moments the Lord grants to me among many, but these are special, aren’t they? It’s like earlier during communion, Jesus asked me, “Do you love me?” And I answered yes, but I went through my soul so that my flesh could be worthy of answering yes. And then, I saw Jesus’ feet; and I always see Jesus’ feet from behind, never from the front; and he was wearing his tunic, and he was moving forward. And there was a little girl holding Jesus’ hand, and then, Jesus said yes. Then, the little girl turned around and she invited all the others who were there as well, and you know who they were, don’t you? It wasn’t only us but also all those we carry in or hearts, yes… and then, we were all holding each other. We were holding Jesus’ tunic, and we were holding each other’s tunics, we were all together.

At one point, Jesus stopped, the little girl stopped, we all stopped, and Jesus sat down. And then, we looked at Jesus. He was so, so, so, so radiant! It’s a light that… well, Jesus isn't a light, of course not. Jesus isn't a light but it’s his whole Being that is radiant. But it didn’t end there. Jesus invited the little girl to look and the little girl looked at all the children who were present. You know, you were all radiant. Yes, all dressed in white, and your faces were glowing. Why? Because we were looking at whom? Jesus. Therefore, his light was reflected on us.

Before I came here this morning, Jesus said, “You will all be a nourishment of joy, of peace and of love. You will be that nourishment which comes from my Nourishment, and you will nourish all the children of the world.” Thank you, Lord.

And so, we need a blessing before we go to bed.